@Former-Member I have just woken up and I am totally flooded with big feelings. I am super super super flooded. Everybody goes away. EVERYBODY GOES AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a giant angry feeling but I know the giant angry feeling is just a secondary feeling that is covering up the real feeling of even more super gigantic grief. My whole entire being is flooded with grief, but I know it comes out and is perceived by others as anger. My brain is flooded with feelings and memories. Everything is flooded. Everything is super super super super super flooded. 
@KobeCat I have just responded to your email. I didn't find it particularly helpful. The unhelpfulness of it is exactly the reason why I am so flooded with grief and hopelessness that @CherryBomb is leaving. Why oh why oh why oh why can't I ever have just a tiny bit of stability in my world where things stay constant and settled long enough for my brain to stop being on high alert waiting for the next wave to hit.
@Former-Member @Former-Member @NikNik @CherryBomb I think there is a 100% chance that I will be calling the SANE helpline at 9:01am this morning. Please don't be angry. Please don't shame me for being me. I know you won't. I know that I'm only fearing that because of a thousand voices from my past. I know you won't say all the sorts of things that most people say when I am struggling with gigantic feelings. I know you "get" it. Thank you so much for getting it. Thank you so much for getting me.
We are definitely not angry, we are here for you @Phoenix_Rising riding this wave alongside you, it will be okay 
@Former-Member this is what you were talking about on the phone, right? Yes, I think it would definitely help me feel safer if you and @Former-Member got yourselves a couple of these so that I can feel less scared that you are going to get squished by a bus and thus create more grief and loss in my world. If you got squished by a bus it would be EXTREMELY annoying...for me I mean. 
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Help us push aside the stigma and discrimination surrounding complex mental health and change the way people talk about, and care for, mental illness.
SANE acknowledges the Traditional Owners of Country throughout Australia and recognises the continuing connection to lands, waters and communities. We pay our respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures; and to Elders past and present.
SANE values diversity. We are committed to providing a safe, culturally appropriate, and inclusive service for all people, regardless of their ethnicity, faith, disability, sexuality, or gender identity.