I really made a tiny turtle. Like palm size. I sort of figured that maybe it was important to have something to show the catt people if I accidentally slipped that there was one in my pocket, especially seeing that they're going to be lingering for a while. Plus I know that when my brain gets flooded sometimes a physical reminder of something good is very helpful. So here is Crush. Nemo of course and I kind of like the idea of this being a together but separate way of taking teenie tiny steps to crushing something that can crush people who really don't need crushing. Added bonus was realising the purple will be super helpful when I am doing a rainbow walk, because purple is so hard to find!
I don't really do friends either at the moment, but I am trying. I don't do friends because I know how much it can hurt when they are all gone. It's a different kind of thing for us, but it hurts. A lot. So I'll settle for super liking you and super liking you like me too 🙂
I'm going to have to leave you guys to chat about this amongst yourselves @Appleblossom and @Spookytookims. This is the space that I come to when I'm in crisis. By definition, that means my brain is super flooded with emotion such that I can't think straight. Thus this is not a space where I can get into a deep and meaningful. This is a space where all my energy is going into staying alive. After the storm settles, I will move into different parts of Forum Land where I will happily engage in an intellectual debate. But right now, I'm in crisis, my brain is flooded, and all I need to focus on is staying alive. I'm heading off to bed now, so that I can get up and try again tomorrow morning. Thank you for caring about me. Night. 
Oh wow, I've woken up to discover that the wave has settled. I had a super good night's sleep, partly because I took some only-for-emergencies medication that I rarely take, and partly because I was so utterly exhausted from riding the wave for over 24 hours. Crying and rocking takes a LOT of energy - indeed, I think rocking should count as a form of exercise.
Hey @Appleblossom, @Spookytookims @Former-Member @Former-Member @outlander @Zoe7 @utopia @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Former-Memberet al., look, the wave passed. I rode it out and it passed. This must be about the fifty-four millionth time that I've proven that the waves pass. Super big thank you for riding with me. You have no idea the difference it has made to my world, to find the Forums and to be able to feel safe knowing there is always someone here who will ride the waves with me. Thank you for being here.
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