Not Coping

[ArraDreaming]

Got your thing from yesterday sorry I missed it @Birdofparadise8 nah no health insurance at the moment going through public could be years

[Birdofparadise8]

Ah, okay, that would make things hard. I'm sorry @ArraDreaming 

[ArraDreaming]

Just part of the public health system @Birdofparadise8 how are you anyway?

[Birdofparadise8]

I'm feeling really sad right now. I'm feeling quite overwhelmed. I'm unsure if it's related to what my psych wanted to discuss with me today or not. I'm just feeling like I'm a really bad undeserving person. I'm feeling really alone and like I'm doing something wrong. 

Maybe this fear of abandonment stems all the way back to when I was born, and being in the hospital, I wouldn't be looked after every time I cried, so my psych said that. That would be felt as pain or rejection. Normally, when babies cry when they are full term, they are looked after by their parents. So a baby wouldn't go through that "pain" my psych is referring to. 

Anyway, I just want to talk to someone. I don't like feeling like this. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah, I guess is would be @ArraDreaming 

Not good if you see my post below. 

[ArraDreaming]

Sorry you feel that way today @Birdofparadise8 poor timing on my part to even come on here knowing I have to go but I do have to go put my kids to bed but will probably be back on soon 🙂

[Birdofparadise8]

Thanks @ArraDreaming 

That's okay.

[Blackbird11]

Sounds like slow going @Birdofparadise8 situations can impact us even in the womb of our mothers... it blows you away. Certainly a lot to process and work over.

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah @Blackbird11 

Not feeling great.

How was dinner?

[Blackbird11]

 Dinner was good, I had tempura mushrooms