Re: Not Coping - Page 1,192

Birdofparadise8 · ‎27-09-2023

I know that so good I'll show you a pic once I get it. Have you been to green cup?

Yes that's the topping they also have ice cream or a frozen yogurt thing.

Mmm yes I guess I take a while to build up trust. I still have one session with my old one in October but if I go into hospital I won't be able to go. I haven't seen her in like a month so to see someone new will be good. I do feel we we re going around in circles by the end. I've also still had my regular at KHL she is just amazing @amber22

Kyle1 · ‎27-09-2023

yes @Birdofparadise8

I stopped that one about a month ago.

And I'm coming off another one that I began at the start of the year to try this new one...

I do hope you find your psych helpful, and a good fit.

I am feeling very optimistic with who I've met today. The only draw back being I have limited consultations. Only a certain number allowed b4 it becomes too expensive for me. That sux...but we'll try make the most of what we can!

So, rationally, there's been some positives over the past two days. Emotionally, I'm still very much a puddle. And I am trying my best to get whatever help I can... I should be patting myself on the back, maybe. But the reality is I'm really tired. Down in my bones tired...

My social anxiety has inflamed since my recent attack. Among other things, it is personally dissapointing because I felt I was beginning to come out of my shell and mix with new people a whole lot more than ever this year. But now, still feeling as isolated and lonely as always...

I often wonder what I did to deserve feeling this way? I know I'm not a bad person. I know I am kind, and friendly, and caring. But I still feel there must be something wrong with me...! I want to sob and moan about "where is the love for me? It isn't fair!", but as I think that...I am reminded of a random kindness that came my way just yesterday, and I am so grateful And amazed:

I went into Banjo's for a coffee. I was awefully hungry!, for I had not eaten all day. And I only had enough money for a coffee...

well, when they called me and coffee was ready, these 2 servers offered me a bag of pies. For free!!

I wasakin of shocked: I asked if I looked hungry or something,? and they said no. I told them anyway that, well...I am actually hungry!. And thank you so much! 🙏❤

Just like that...

If I can offer you anything from this @Birdofparadise8, it's; don't give up on magic or a miracle. It happens!

amber22 · ‎27-09-2023

I am so glad that you still have your regular to speak to at KHL. I hope that this new psych is helpful for you too, and that you gel with them @Birdofparadise8

No I haven't been to green cup!

I have tried the frozen yogurts, but not the chocolate topping! The frozen yogurts were delicious!