Need to vent

[Snowie]

@BlueBay sorry to hear you are going through so much at the moment. Please know we are here for you and listening.

I hope this afternoon improves a little for you.💌💌

[BlueBay]

I’m so over my controlling manipulative narcissistic mother

why can’t I see my dad 

all I want is to see him 

she’s stopping me and my sister 

but yet my younger sister sees him daily 

it’s so wrong 

I’m not coping lately 

triggered 

just feeling very rejected 

hopeless and very alone 

I have no one to talk to during day 

friends are busy 

do t want to bother them 

I’m hurting and emotional 

I’m angry to the point of sh 

[Peregrinefalcon]

Hey @BlueBay 

I'm sorry to hear how tough things are right now. I can see how much you want to see your dad and how much pain it must be causing you.

We are here sitting with you tonight. Is there something nice and grounding you can do for yourself?

Take extra good care of yourself today 💛

[BlueBay]

the anger i feel right now is unbearable

the hurt i feel is painful

the rejection i feel is like a stab in the heart

why? i just can't understand except that she is doing this for some sort of pleasure and control

this is elder abuse

sh is very near in my thoughts

@Peregrinefalcon 

[Snowie]

@BlueBay 

It is simply just not fair with everything you are going through.

No one should have to go through this.

Sitting with you hon 💗💗

[BlueBay]

🥲🥲🥲

[BlueBay]

No words 

just tears 🥲🥲🥲

[Appleblossom]

@BlueBay 

My mother stood between my father and I.

It is a very sad and destructive pattern in some families.

Gentle hugs

Apple

[BlueBay]

Hi @Appleblossom 

I’m sorry you were treated like this too by your mother. 

im struggling so much that all I want to do is sh to feel the pain and then fix it. 

I am exhausted mentally. Can’t think anymore. 

the sh thoughts are very strong right now. 

I’m tired 

[Peregrinefalcon]

Hey @BlueBay 

It sounds extremely tough right now. Those urges can be so strong at times and so hard to ignore. We have sent an email checking in. 

Sitting with you here, too 💛