Thanks @Sans911, have used that chat service before but it takes so long to get on there and I find counsellors are sometimes not avaliable on there. Plus Sane know what has happened and I didn't really want to explain things again.
Had a good chat to H this morning and worked out a few things. Was a hard chat but will be worth it in the long run.
I did talk to him however about the privacy of this place and I need to be able to trust him, in return with me trying to be more open with him. Spoke about the need for this support and also how much harder it is to tell a loved one what your thoughts are.
We will leave it there for the moment, that has exhausted me enough. 
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Help us push aside the stigma and discrimination surrounding complex mental health and change the way people talk about, and care for, mental illness.
SANE acknowledges the Traditional Owners of Country throughout Australia and recognises the continuing connection to lands, waters and communities. We pay our respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures; and to Elders past and present.
SANE values diversity. We are committed to providing a safe, culturally appropriate, and inclusive service for all people, regardless of their ethnicity, faith, disability, sexuality, or gender identity.