Moving forward (sexual abuse )

[BlueBay]

Hi @Shamrock

I didn't receive your notification that you sent me a post.

Unfortunately I didn't bring it up because i didn't have enough time.  Being a first session i had to talk about my own trauma and who i had seen prevoiusly and what type of therapy i had done.

Before i knew it, it was time to go.

What do I do?    I am feeling quite stressed and can't get it out of my head.

[Former-Member]

Hi @BlueBay,

I can hear that this is causing stress for you and that you feel it may not be appropriate to discuss it in hte forums. Talking about it with your psychologist would have been a good thing, but completely understand that during your first session is not the best time to do this.

If you feel you need to speak about this, you can talk to us about it. We are about to close for the day but we will be around again tomorrow from 9am-5pm if you want to come onto chat any any point.

What do you have planned tonight? Perhaps there is something you can do that will help you to cope with this until you get the opportunity to talk about it

[BlueBay]

Hi @Former-Member

is there no moderators tonight??

I guess i will have to wait until tomorrow to chat.

[outlander]

Hi CB
thank you for your response yesterday. I wasnt quite in the state to respond but I can now.

Ive made up a few of those cards. Ive got to get them laminated though. So im trying not to get them wrecked. Ill upload a pic of them for you later.
I made up one for the 5 senses because that sometimes works when my anxiety is high but its not a flashback. One with a breathing technique so when I have panic attacks its a prompt to remember to breath And I made up the one you have as well for the flashbacks.

I am triggered by words, smells, feelings, as well as many other things that I assocate with the events and pretty much life. Life itself almost triggers me because its hard to find something that doesnt trigger me.

And yes please, please tag me into the other thread. Id definently be up for that.

@CheerBear

[BlueBay]

@Former-Member what should I do?

I can't go to the authorities, i am too scared.  and it will open up a can or worms with my sexual abuse.

this is scary stuff; terrible stuff.

i don't know how to not stop thinking about it

[Former-Member]

Hi @BlueBay - sounds pretty awful, if you are in need to chat feel free to reach out to us. We're in the office until 5 today.

[BlueBay]

Oh i wish i could get rid of my past childhood sexual abuse.

These memories are triggering so much the past day and it's hurting me so much

Go away, just go away and leave me alone memories just go away 😞

[outlander]

i know BB.. i know... @BlueBay

[outlander]

ok @Sans911 here is the other thread

if you want to- no pressure one bit- my story is on page 4 about halfway down

[Former-Member]

@outlander I found smell was the strongest sense and someone on here ? @Teej or @Faith-and-Hope ? mentioned to use scent to break me out of a flashback. Keep some essential oil in your handbag ready to whip out when you need it. It helps bring me back to earth.