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[tyme]

I hear the urge to harm is so real for you tonight. What can you do to stay safe @The-red-centaur ?

We are concerned and encourage you to contact:

Lifeline 13 11 14 https://www.lifeline.org.au/

Lifeline Text Support 0477 131 114

Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467 https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/

Samaritans 135 247 https://thesamaritans.org.au/

I'll also send you a check-in email.

[The-red-centaur]

@tyme I contacted BeyondBlue helpline but couldn't get through. The wait is like over half hour.
I also spoke my ndis service provider.

I'm trying to manage but they said if I continue to escalate they'll call emergent services. I'm over this shit.

[The-red-centaur]

Urgh...so I messed it up last night and now I'm awaiting surgery......I'm done with fighting.

[hanami]

Are you still in hospital @The-red-centaur ?

[The-red-centaur]

@hanami yeh. In awaiting to go to ward to have surgery.

[The-red-centaur]

I'm on my way home.

[The-red-centaur]

Weirdly I feel ok today. I slept like 12 hours when I got home and my mood is ok.


Saturdays are my favourite day of the week. I gp play cards (magic the gathering) with friends at a local hobby shop. Makes me feel semi normal.

[NatureLover]

Yay that you felt OK yesterday @The-red-centaur ! 🙂 Especially after your awful day on Friday...

[The-red-centaur]

Sorry I've not been online. I was in hospital.

[The-red-centaur]

I'm sick of people telling me to just call emergency services.
I'm currently not in crisis. I'm okish, I'm just tired.

I just want to be heard that I can't deal with myself or my life anymore. I want someone to tell me it's all going to be OK instead of just fobbing me to the next person or sending me to the hospital.


My carer is driving me nuts today, they are new and never worked with me today. He just keep walking into my room and telling me to call lifeline.
I am waiting
waiting for my case manager to get back to me following sine stuff from yesterday. My BSP won't get back to me either. Urgh.

What are you supposed to do when you have a the right supports but you feel like you're going insane and no one is listening