I'm in a nest

[outlander]

I have a song for both @Former-Member @CheerBear i know yoyr both struggling yourselves

Look up on youtube SIA NEVER GIVE UP i think of both of you and hopefully this song can help you along too ❤❤

[Phoenix_Rising]

@CheerBear I am so super super super happy for you that you found a safe boat in white!!!! It sounds like he is one of those rare ones who "gets" it. Working through the issues of being poked and prodded by the catt team sounds like it would have been super valuable. I'm also super pleased that you feel you've been able to work through the muddle with your phams worker.

Your super positive experience can sort-of offset my amazingly unhelpful one of yesterday. I have just got off the phone from my psychologist and even though I still feel like I've been squished by a bus, I know she is one of the good ones too. Nothing is really going to de-squish me for a while - just time. But that's ok, I've done this a bazillion times before so I know the horribleness of right now will pass. Your super positive news has brightened my day. Hooray for the helpers who get it!

[CheerBear]

@Former-Member- your post made me smile a lot too. The idea that we're rubbing off on each other in a really positive way, well that's about as cool as it gets 🙂 I'm so happy to hear that being honest turned out pretty well for you too. Alongside feeling disempowered, the feeling that my honesty and being 'real' is what gets me in trouble, is about as big a blow as it can get for me. I've just spent a good chunk of my counselling appointment talking about this exact thing. I want to be able to walk alongside you too, if you'd have me. So please feel like you are able to share whatever it is you want here in the nest (I'm saying this because I know you felt funny here a couple of days ago). Also, the idea of having something purple - I love that. Very coincidentally I have been crocheting a tiny little turtle to keep in my pocket for when I am dealing with the ships in white and it's shell is purple 🙂 I'm planning on sharing that with a turtle who is riding a wave when the wave passes, which we all know it will.

@outlander - love that song. Thank you for sharing it 🙂 About to head to your im back thread to have a read

[Former-Member]

Thanks @CheerBear for your kind words. It's been good for me to have read yours and other posts here. I think I can share my stuff here if it relates a bit better. I realised today that I'm not very good at reading where someone really is at on the forum. And sometimes my mood is reflected a little too much in my posts. I'm hoping its something I can work on and get better at. I tend to over care and over share too 😳

Thank you for offering to share my stuff here too. I'm afraid my brain is a little too chaotic for that.....I would smash this thread to pieces, totally accidentally. I'm much better than I was but I still have not got the grace or the calmness required to post much here. I also see the value of having somewhere where you can feel as safe as possible on the forum. I think this is your place for that. I can always find my old thread if needed or probably start a new one. But thanks for thinking of me. 

I love the purple crocheted turtle concept. I think I'm going to have to find some little things to hang on to as well. Possibly it's my car I need to adorn with them as that is where most of my self destruction occurs. 

I'm about to head out 2 hours past when I was meant to :face_with_rolling_eyes:  I hope your night is ok. 💜😘

[Phoenix_Rising]

Psssst, @CheerBear, do you think I could sleep in your pocket tonight? I feel super alone and your pocket seems like a snuggly safe place to sleep. I just saw the picture of the turtle and I super love it. I like you and I like that you like that I like you and I like that you like me and I like that we can like each other and like that we like each other and like not being friends. Yep, that definitely works for me. {Snuggles into CheerBear's pocket to sleep without bothering to wait for her to say it's ok}.

[CheerBear]

I don't have the right mindset to cope with these feelings right now. I feel panicked and sick and like I can't breathe. I'm sitting in the nest trying to be ok. Really trying my hardest to be ok. It'll be ok.

[CheerBear]

@Phoenix_Rising yes please. Let's do that.

Our waves have collided. We're in this together. It'll be ok. We'll be ok.

[outlander]

@CheerBear sending you lots of hugs ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ . Maybe you'll could take a look at your pintrest board eith all the fairy lights?

[Shaz51]

and I am here holding your hand @CheerBear 

[Phoenix_Rising]

@CheerBear I have a feeling I know what you mean about our waves colliding and I have done what I can to address it. It is superly duperly not ok...but that's ok. Everything is ok. I am almost falling over with tiredness so I super badly need to get to bed (in your pocket). I am too tired to process this latest muddle. I have spent the entire day working at staying alive - I did not need this. You have spent the entire day celebrating your win of yesterday - you did not need this. It's bedtime CheerBear. Walk away from the phone/computer and just breathe and then sleep.