I'm in a nest

[Spookytookims]

ha.. pretty much jinx on that one 😛 @CheerBear  yeah well see that limbo push me pull you thing is enough to drive anyone crazy.  it plays with the mind and keeps it constantly thinking about it.   It truly is "crazy making" by the real definition of the term because it doesn't allow for stability and base to actually think things through properly before.. woooosh.. the rug is pulled again.  So it literally keeps you unbalanced.

[CheerBear]

I said something concerning on Friday @Spookytookims. I've kept well away from that conversation since then. I think they know that a push could send me out of control, but they won't drop it. So i feel like they're trying to coax me into coming out with it now.

[CheerBear]

He told me today that I said something about our housing situation that is the exact opposite of what I know I said. And he said it with such certainty that I now don't know if I said it. But I know the words I said, the exact words. I can remember because I said dates and told him what the house looked like. And he said 'yes' after I said that hearing that I said something I know I didn't say makes me wonder whether I am now starting to hear and see things that aren't real. @Spookytookims - this has bad news all over it

[Spookytookims]

good...   re the LF being looked after if needed.. then that's ok ...  because understand not wanting to let them know unless absolutely necessary but good you have an avenue there...  so that's at least something that can be ticked off. @CheerBear

So the biggest thing is if ordered it is taken out of your control?  If that's it I can 100000% get that...   that is exactly what I hated most when it happened to me.  Well when I realised it had happened to me.  But htat was instant.. not drawn out like this shite you are being put through.  This is a whole new level of crap that I've never heard of before.  Hell by now you could have been in and out and at least have that gold star and they'd only be monitoring you until they were sure you were ok.  Not this endless well maybe you are going in tomorrow crap.

[CheerBear]

I'm logging off before I go completely totally mad @Spookytookims. Thanks for coming online. Sleep well. Hope things feel better for you soon too 💛

[Spookytookims]

@CheerBear  all the more reason to record everything that is said...   for you peace of mind.  Literally.

Goodnight....   not that I think you will have one but just hoping maybe you will zonk into a deep dreamless sleep because you are exhausted.

*waves*

Get this sorted @CheerBear   or it will drive you crazy.  Even if it means complying, doing the smiling and nodding thing @Phoenix_Rising talks about...and going in ...    just to get this endless  rollercoaster gone, so you can get back to some kind of normality.  This is really not doing you any good at all (yeah stating the bleeping obvious I know!  Sorry).

[Spookytookims]

@CheerBear    I need to take a few steps back, waaaay back.  I don't feel I can help you.  I feel totally out of my depth because I have no experience or understanding to be able to "get" what is happening with you.  I really really really want to be able to help you but I don't understand it.  I'm absolutely worse than useless if I can't understand something to the level I need to.  And in this case, not only am I out of reach,  I'm not even in the same universe.  (Assuming a multiverse of course :P).   

So I'm going to pull back and let Phoenix_Rising help you.  Because I think she's got this, where I just don't have a clue and am totally floundering.

i truly hope you get it worked out, and can emerge from your nest soon.

[Phoenix_Rising]

Good morning @CheerBear,

Just letting you know that when you go to your meeting today, I will be sitting right there in your nest in your pocket.

[CheerBear]

@Phoenix_Rising thank you so much. Knowing I'm not alone and that there are people who are ok to sit in my pocket and remind me that I am not alone, is most helpful thing I can feel right now.

[outlander]

@CheerBear ❤❤❤