I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

[Former-Member]

@outlanderi am sis

whats up

[outlander]

I dont feel very well @Former-Member

[Former-Member]

@outlanderin what way hun?

[outlander]

Im having trouble getting the words out. Sorry if it doesnt make much sense i feel all tired and jumbly @Former-Member

I feel really unwell everywhere esp my chest, ribs throat and stomach. I didnt even meantion the kidney pain last night i didnt think of it but its still there whatever that is. I can hardly move. Im still in bed but i can't sleep but i cant move. My phone is sitting on my chest so i dont have to move much to type.
Im trying to keep my anxiety under control. Im terrifie itll happen again. They gave me puffers in case it does happen but it still scarea the crap out of me

[Former-Member]

@outlanderyou have been through an enormous amount the last 4-5 days. It might just be your body saying that you need rest and it needs time to heal. Our bodies need to heal as well as our minds. If the pain gets to the point of not being able to cope with it than you need to ring for help hun. 

Just focus on taking deep breaths for now. I understand how crippling anxiety is and I hate having those panic attacks especially when we do not know when they are coming. Use the puffers if you need to.

I will be sitting here with you next to you sis 

[outlander]

I guess so @Former-Member ill just stay here. I really cant so much else. Ok sis if pain gets to much ill get help. Again.
Ok breathing and sitting here with you sounds like a plan ❤

[Former-Member]

Just rest sweet Claire Try not to focus on sleeping, just try to focus on relaxing your muscles. Imagine your laying on a rainbow cloud, this is no storm cloud - it's a magic cloud; everywhere the cloud touches you - your muscles can relax. Try to imagine this magical relaxation starting at you feet, all the discomfort leaves your heels and as your feet fully sink in - all the pain is gone. Let your imagination continue to sink along your legs and up through all of your body, until even your head sinks in. The magic of this rainbow cloud has also got amazing oxygen and it's so much easier to breathe, . . . you want to sink in, it helps to release all your tension and pain. It's so comfortable in there, I think I'll sink in with you 🙂

Love you Claire @outlander 

[Former-Member]

@outlanderget help as much as you need it. Your symptoms are very real and you deserve to be looked after in a caring and compassionate way. 

[outlander]

you can come join me Niqua @Former-Member   and you too Nellbell  @Former-Member thank you

[outlander]

my pop has to go back to the specialist who put his drain in a few yrs ago as they thinks theres something wrong with is. hopefully its nothing but im stressing as thats where i nearly lost him last time!

so much for keeping my own anixety under wraps today!!!!