I can’t cope

[ArraDreaming]

Hope your ok Cap

[tyme]

That's so good to hear you had some self-care time. @Captain24 

When I have hard days, I tell myself to push through because the self-care days are coming. That's how I look at it and it's the only way I get through.

There's some days where I have so much to do. I wake up and think how am I going to manage. Then as the day goes by, I have to do a lot of self talk and cross things off my list as a way to see the end of the tunnel.

I think it's about finding ways to manage in a way that works for us.

Also, fingers cross all goes well with the tests and upcoming surgery.

Anyway, I'm heading off but will catch you when I see you next.

Please take care.

[Captain24]

I’m in the dark rooms and crying but the rest of it is me. 

This is also me! 😜 

 

 

[Captain24]

So my biopsy has come back cancer free! @tyme @AuntGlow @Jynx I fell into that 25% category! 

One less thing off my mind. It’s a relief. Doesn’t really lift my mood much but has me a little more at ease if that makes any sense. 

Now to face the place I don’t want to go to. 

Have a good night. I’m hoping too but probably won’t. I know I know… it’s the wrong attitude but it’s the way I’m feeling. It’s going to be a long night. I’m tired and really depressed and want to just call in sick but I can’t, I have to face it

[Jynx]

WOOHOOOOO!! 

Was gonna write a bunch more but I have to dash @Captain24 but seriously, so so happy to hear this 😊

Hope work isn't being too gnarly 🤞

[Captain24]

It’s ok that you ran out of time @Jynx. The fact that you thought to write more to me when I wasn’t on really means a lot. Thank you for thinking of me . I do love having posts when I finish after nightshift. 

We had an epic lightening storm last night so that was my self care. I love watching lightening! I find it calming. I know that makes no sense though. 

The other part of the shift seemed to just drag on but I got through it without getting over stimulated so I guess that was a plus. I was in a truck that doesn’t beep though! 

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I hope you have a good day. I’m hoping to get a decent sleep to do it all again tonight. 

Thanks again for thinking of me. I really appreciate it and it means so much to me.

[tyme]

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[Captain24]

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[Jynx]

@Captain24 Mainly I wanted to talk about that sense of relief and like, how it's taken 'one more thing off your mind'. It reminded me of this that I saw the other day -

I thought it was a brilliant way to talk about ND overwhelm/burnout, and then remind you gently that...it's okay if you're struggling at the moment, you got a lotta forks! And I think for us ND folks, things that are regular occurrences to most, can be forks for us.

Like sensory overwhelm for instance! Where the sound of the dryer and the itchy tag and the pets running around are all forks to deal with, when to others it's just whatever. But to us it can be the difference between being cranky n irritated, and a full-blown meltdown.

So glad this giant cancer-shaped fork has been removed for you!! 

Course I'm thinking of ya! You're part of the forums fam, duhh 😋

Hope you survive ok tonight! 💜