I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Thanks @Snowie 

[Jynx]

Struggling does not denote failure @Captain24 - this is a normal part of recovery. Think of it in terms of the fact that three weeks is a very short amount of time compared to habits that have built up over your entire lifetime. And those habits built up as a response to overwhelming circumstances; they developed as a means of ensuring your survival.

Breaking habits that once served to protect us from harm is a very difficult thing to do, because it feels like you're trying to go against the most fundamental human instinct - to survive. Of course your brain is gonna throw up all sorts of road blocks, because to your survival system, you're trying to change the things that it thinks are necessary to keep you safe. 

I'm glad you decided to take time off work hun. Are there any skills or tools you learned that you could try to apply? If you were back in the clinic, what do you think the nurses or psychs would be saying to you right now? 

[Eve7]

Dropping off a big hug 🫂 and a bucket load of love for you @Captain24  💙💙💙

[Captain24]

I don’t know @Jynx.

I just can’t.

Why even try.

I’ve had enough. 

Im done

Im gonna go.

Thank you so much for all the support you’ve shown me on here. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 you're worth every bit of it hun. 

I'm gonna flick you an email okay? And I'll be here if you wanna keep chatting 💜

[Captain24]

Why???

I have so much I need to let out but I don’t know how or who to. 

I don’t want to be judged. 

Im ashamed. 

I can’t keep going backwards. 

I don’t see the point in life. 

Is there any point in trying. 

I don’t want a life anymore. 

I also think I should probably stay off here too.

[Friendlyflutter]

Hi @Captain24,

I understand things are difficult right now. 

Please have a look at the email sent by @Jynx 

[NatureLover]

@Captain24  I'm so sorry you feel like life isn't worth it 😢

@Jynx  is so wise...it takes more than 3 weeks to undo a lifetime of survival strategies.

I hope you can ease up on your expectations of yourself a little 💙

Sending care...

[Captain24]

So I’ve been and seen the GP. Because I’m having some good days that means I’m ok. It hurt hearing that as this morning I did something again. I’m getting really sore as it’s happening more often. 

It’s my own fault, I wasn’t completely honest with him. But he didn’t book another appointment. All my supports are bailing on me after one admission and no one is listening to how bad I feel.

My headspace is not good. 

[lavenderhaze]

Hey @Captain24,

I am so sorry to hear that you're not feeling heard

You are not alone, and it's not your fault hun ❤️

Are you feeling safe?

I am here to support you in whatever way I can, sending you hugs!