Emptiness

[Katz42]

Your feelings sound so awful and unbearable. I don't think that keeping your feelings to yourself is right or helpful. Sometimes yes, but those feelings eat away at you and only make you feel worse. In the right environment and with the right people, sharing those feelings, I believe, is good for you. I find that sometimes I need my feelings validated because I am not sure whether "my feelings are right" sort of thing. No one can validate my feelings, if I don't tell anyone about them. I have weekly therapy to help me. Therapy is expensive, I understand that. I wish that I had an easy answer. I, fortunately have NDIS funding to pay for my weekly therapy. I was wondering whether it is possible for you to talk to your GP and see whether you can get help from NDIS. Your GP, is hopefully supportive and understanding, should be able to tell you where to start looking into NDIS application and funding. Despite how you feel, you are not alone! It might take a few attempts to find the right supportive health professional, but it is still worth pursuing. It has taken me 56 years to find the right help. I really hope that maybe your GP can steer you in a helpful direction, whether it be NDIS or not. I think that under the GP health management plan, people are eligible to a certain number of psychology appointments, and may be given more if it proves helpful. Don't quote me on it, it seems the government changes rules and stipulations every year. But have hope that there is help out there, even if the searching is difficult and long, it WILL happen. Take care. 😺

[Glisten]

👋🏼 Welcome to the forum @Katz42 your choice of font and colour indicates a creative graphic design.

Tell the forum more about yourself 

I do woodworking at the local Women’s Shed and I’m running late.

G

[Hope2Recovery]

Hi @Isa1, I am sorry to hear you are going through this, I can relate to and understand your frustration. Have you expressed your concerns to your GP? Everybody is different and unique, one thing I have learnt about family and friends is that I can not change them, every time I tried, I was disappointed!

I too struggle with expressing myself, especially with my father, I can never open up to him and sometimes I think that people should know how to act and know what to say, but that's never the case. By interacting with the SANE community on this forum, I slowly started expressing my feelings towards other people, it's a slow progress.

I have learned to stop saying YES to everything, it used to mentally drain me, and I have learnt to set boundaries with family and friends, it has helped me to slow down, relax and be in the present moment. Don't be too hard on yourself, look after yourself, and take care. 

[BPDSurvivor]

Hello @Asgard @Isa1 @Hope2Recovery @Glisten 

[Glisten]

@BPDSurvivor 👋🏼 Morning how you doing today?

[BPDSurvivor]

Good morning @Glisten . I’m in bed still but will get up soon. 

wat are you doing today? Brekkie?

[Glisten]

@BPDSurvivor 5am I ate my raw Red Tractor 🚜 protein oats.

🫢 Second breakfast at 7am coffee ☕️ and a slice of fruit loaf with peanut butter.

Ate all of it in bed while scrolling through FB Marketplace looking for inspiration. 😆

Found an ok concept for an open wardrobe with measurements. I’ll build it myself with hardwood.

Need to go to Bullsbrook. The fly screen mesh I purchased is not wide enough. 🚗 Have to exchange it at Bunnings and go back 🚘 to fix the fly screens. :hammer:

Inconveniently my daughter just messaged me 🤳 telling me that it’s my grandson’s last game at soccer for the season. Now I feel like poophead :pile_of_poo: because I can’t be there 😔

Enough about me. What does your Sunday have in store for you?

G

[BPDSurvivor]

@Glisten  - I like how you put it... the Red Tractor protein oats. I don't think ive eaten oats in decades! 

I'm forever busy... just doing things. I was just posting somewhere else that I'll be on school holidays soon so I look forward to having a break from work....sleep in.... party hard... who knows?

what have you been up to?

[Glisten]

@BPDSurvivor that’s really good that you’re going to get a break. Slot sometime in to do something completely different. Go horse riding or paintingball. Fly a kite 🪁 I don’t know. It’s good for the brain 🧠 

Me, I have been doing way too much. The list is endless and varied. From digging drainage trenches and laying pipe to checking my lawyer’s oversights and over charges. Parenting and grandparenting. Repairing furniture blah blah etc 

G

[BPDSurvivor]

At least you are keeping yourself busy @Glisten .

Parenting and grandparenting is hard work lol. 

I'm on school holidays but I've got a lot of work to catch up on. 

We just keep going, isn't it?

Hve a good day!