Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

[CherryBomb]

@hiddenite thanks for letting us know about you. Your house sounds beautiful. 

About me? Thank you too for showing interesting in me. 

I live in the inner city - feels like I'm in the big smoke, but I really love being out in nature. Actually, today  I took a trip out of the city to rest by a water hole in a national park. It was serene and energising. I'm pretty outdoorsy, I've been rock climbing for a while now. It's certainly not the thrill that I enjoy but more being outside and camping. I make a point of getting out of the city at least once a week if not to climb, then at least to hike, or to just sit and be by the water like today. I love it so much I'm moving out of the city to be closer to the mountains mid this year. Looking forward to the fresh air.  

I also enjoy reading and writing. Just finished a great book called 'The Kite Runner'. Do you like reading? Or do you have any favourite books?

BTW, I did this really interesting strengths based quiz. It's based on positive psychology, which instead of placing focus on pathology, it looks at character strengths.  I dig it. As I mentioned earlier, I think we can focus so much on MI that we tend to overlook other wonderful parts of ourselves. My top strengths are:

1.) Gratitude

2.) Humour

3.) Curiousity

What about you? Want to give the quiz ago?

[hiddenite]

Hey CB

Thanks for sharing....

I'm really dark ATM overwhelmed not in a good place

Sorry

[CherryBomb]

That's ok @hiddenite 

just write when you're ready too. We're always here for you. 

Remember if you feel like everything is too much and that you're at risk of harming yourself contact the CAT Team,  Lifeline or Suicide Call Back Service or 000.

Sending you cuddles. 

Stay safe.

CherryBomb

[kristin]

Hey @hiddenite 

I'm so sorry it's feeling so overwhelming for you. Whilst I don't like that you're feeling thisway I know from experience that it can really help to be able to tell someone else who cares when we are. So I'm glad you've let us know. Well done for speaking out you pain.

Is there anything we can do to help you? Would it helpyou to talk about something in particular? Do some songs or types of music help you feel calmer?

Kindest regards, 

Kristin

[kristin]

Dear @hiddenite 

One of my favourite poems in the world and one that has brought me great solace when I have been in very dark times is a poem called Footprints. Do you know it?

Footprints

One night I dreamed a dream.
As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and one to my Lord.

After the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,
especially at the very lowest and saddest times,
there was only one set of footprints.

This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,
You'd walk with me all the way.
But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you
Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you."

I hope this might be of some help to you. I have had a few times in recent years when I thought I would collapse from the terrible emotional, psychological and physical strain I was under - I didn't know how i would get through. Yet somehow I found I was getting through. I asked "how am I doing this?" and the answer? I wasn't - I was being carried. I knew that I still needed to work as much as I could to find a way out of my terrible situation, but I would be held through it. I pray you might have a "footprints" experience of being held and carried in the midst of this now. This too will pass.

Kindest regards, 

Kristin

[hiddenite]

So beautiful, very special...

I'm shaking so much hard to type

Feel like I'm crawling in my own skin

I don't know what is happen to me

Really scared

I don't have the words but thank you

[CherryBomb]

I'm worried about you @hiddenite 

Where are you? Are you able to contact some of the services that I mentioned earlier?

[kristin]

I live in the bush near a river too @hiddenite .

My house is quite large because I have three children. It is anything but beautiful, in fact it's pretty messy at the moment! It needs lots of work - that was the only reason I could afford to buy it. Not much has got done because there's been so much "STUFF" happening in the 3 years we've been here. But it is ours, and it backs onto the Yarra River. Sadly the block is long and narrow so the neighbours are very close (and one lot are pretty horrid).

When I am struggling I go down to the river and sit and listen to the sounds of the water and creatures. I find it very soothing. Often if it's not too cold I'll put my feet in the river. It helps to calm me. Being near the river has been an incredible gift. 

It sounds like where you lived was quite remote, no mains water or sewage. It sounds very beautiful. You must miss it.

Take care of you please.

We are all holding hope for you because, even when we can't hold hope ourselves, hope endures...

Kindest regards, 

Kristin

[hiddenite]

I sit by the river in Warburton

[Former-Member]

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