Hi @Former-Member 
I can hear that you have really be having a hard few days. Trying to cope with big emotions is never easy. Birthdays and anniversaries are always hard and it doesnt sound like your sister is helping too much.
You mentioned that you are feeling scared and nervous. Is this about the tests that you have coming up? The suggestions of learning some relaxation techniques is a good idea from @CheerBear. @Phoenix_Rising's suggestions of breathing through it or just being are also good. I know sometimes these things are much easier said then done.
Is there something that you feel may be helpful for you today? Even if that is chatting to people here.
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Help us push aside the stigma and discrimination surrounding complex mental health and change the way people talk about, and care for, mental illness.
SANE acknowledges the Traditional Owners of Country throughout Australia and recognises the continuing connection to lands, waters and communities. We pay our respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures; and to Elders past and present.
SANE values diversity. We are committed to providing a safe, culturally appropriate, and inclusive service for all people, regardless of their ethnicity, faith, disability, sexuality, or gender identity.