Depression- Really Struggling- may be triggering

[Zoe7]

Oh sh*t @Former-Member - someone has to put up with me so it may as well be you lol

[Former-Member]

@NikNik is probably on to something there! Strategies for coping right now in the moment,

Can you put some music on? Or a meditation type of thing (smiling mind?) Grounding type things, look around the room, feel something in your hands. Throw something up in the air and catch it a few times.

Deep breathing of course

and knowing that we're here with you,

lj

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member 

im sorry your family treated you like that. i know how you feel.

i dont know what i want anymore.  i dont know what i want to do.

im struggling so much i dont even know what give me joy anymore, i feel like ive lost everything esp over the past few weeks. i think the only thing that keeps me going is being on here sometimes

i dont even know what i did or done. my mother wont talk to me she just growls at me and tells me to get over it.. ive tried that, oh ive tried to so bad but i just cant. so hey i fail at that too. 😞

[Zoe7]

@Former-Member imagine yourself here...

[Queenie]

how about we focus on something else for distraction @Former-Member? You could always ask me anything about your medical terminology that you're studying... I find study a good distraction.

[Former-Member]

I was doing something the other night that might be something you could try @Former-Member. This might sound super strange but stick with me. I love pinterest and I decided to create a board called "feel better soon". I searched for all kinds of things. Things like 'self care strategies', 'inspiring quotes', 'recovery from depression', 'healing trauma' etc. One thing lead to another and another and I escaped into a world of things that gave me some hope, some breathing space and took my mind off how rubbish I felt. It used little mental energy and ended up being fun. You could use it equally as well as a venting board too if that would help. Maybe it isn't so much a being present and breathing tool, but it might be something new to try?

[Former-Member]

i feel like nothing @Former-Member 

but i know people are here. it just doesnt feel like it right now

@NikNik @Former-Member im trying to use some of my coping strategies. im listening to music, i was studying but i couldnt concentrate and i just wasnt in the mood. i cant seem to think clearly to answer the questions .

at least being on here is ok

[Former-Member]

did you really mean what you said before @Zoe7

@Queenie i dont really know, i was trying to study but i couldnt really concentrate on it, and nothing was sinking in. my mother has really distraught me tonight, i dont really know why

@Former-Member ive never thought of that. that could be something to do

[Zoe7]

Just a thought little caterpillar @Former-Member

Try drawing 'YOUR GARDEN'. In it - at the centre- is you a strong, amazing vibrant caterpillar. Surrounding you are your butterflies, and that funny looking inchworm (sorry @Former-Member). Amongst 'your garden family' are bright beautiful flowers that bring everyone joy - and you are the CENTRE of that joy.

...and yes my little caterpillar 100% meant what I said - just did not want to tell you before because I thought you would think I was stupid thinking that way - but I do!

[Former-Member]

that could be a thought @Zoe7 

i havent thought of that yet. i could always give that ago.

it doesnt sound silly to me at all- i thought you hated me tbh to start with