Dark thoughts scaring me.

[Tigga321]

Hello,

i am having very dark thoughts from sexual,physical and mental abuse, from childhood and marriage, I can't stop them, my mind just keeps remembering them,I'm not sleeping and all I'm doing is crying all day and night. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Tigga321 ..... and welcome to the forums.

My “like” was to say that I am hearing to you.  Have you seen your doctor for help with this ?

I am glad you checked in here today ...... reaching out is a good idea, and this is a good place to reach out.

🌷

[Tigga321]

Yes I see a psych, but unavailable for the next 7 weeks, 

I'm on new meds now 6 weeks, there not working. Not sure what to do now, I can't go on like this, to many tears to many memories,

[Faith-and-Hope]

Are you feeling like you are safe tonight @Tigga321 ?

[Former-Member]

Hi @Tigga321

Hi, I can relate to your situation, especially with the childhood. 

I am glad you are seeing a psychologist but 7 weeks is a long time to go without support.

Were the meds prescribed by a doctor or psychiatrist?

Do you do any mindfullness to help with the flashbacks at all?

There is support out there. 1800 RESPECT is a great support. If you ring them they will put you through to a specialist counsellor who can help with giving you different ways to cope.

Sorry if there are too many questions. Just answer what you feel comfortable with 

[Tigga321]

Yes,  thoughts are there, but won't act on them, 

[Tigga321]

Hi Neil,

My physiatrist prescribed them, I do use mindfulness but my thoughts are to loud and meditation and mindfulness not helping, it's been 3 nights now without sleep, I'm not sleepy just mentally exhausted.

[Former-Member]

Hi @Tigga321 - sadly i can relate to your experiences and to how you are feeling now. I'm sorry that its such a long time till you see your psych again. I imagine it is only adding to how you are feeling now. I'm glad you dont feel as though you will act on the thoughts, lots of people here have been through times with those thoughts and know how hard it is. take care

[Former-Member]

@Tigga321I can certainly relate to what you are talking about. I am glad you have supports in place, just a long time to wait. Hopefully you find support on this forum. 

If your meds are not working, than maybe it is something you can discuss with your psychiatrist. I am on med try number 4 at the moment.

[Tigga321]

This is my 4th lot as well, I told him last week there not working but he said to keep at them..I live in a small country village the psychiatrist flys down from Sydney, he won't be back for 7 more weeks, My gp not allowed to change them my mental health nurse away for 5 weeks. I don't think I'm going to last that long, This hurting is wearing me down