Hey @Fluttershy1
Things are sounding rather hard for you right now.
It’s really good to know you’re safe and that you’re reached out for connection from the community here. 
I just wonder if also outside of the community here, have you got additional supports around you at the moment?
You will know what’s best and what works for you but I just wanted to say hi & let you know that you’re not alone.
I’ve often too, feel like that at times, so I can empathise.
Warm wishes
Flybluebird
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Help us push aside the stigma and discrimination surrounding complex mental health and change the way people talk about, and care for, mental illness.
SANE acknowledges the Traditional Owners of Country throughout Australia and recognises the continuing connection to lands, waters and communities. We pay our respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures; and to Elders past and present.
SANE values diversity. We are committed to providing a safe, culturally appropriate, and inclusive service for all people, regardless of their ethnicity, faith, disability, sexuality, or gender identity.