Hi @outlander - I hope you didn't see my non response as an abandonment. I left on an impromptu drive to nature to get fresh air and get peace from my head temporarily. I returned to rush for dinner with a few gfs and am now back seeing how everyone is doing, particularly you my friend. The thoughts disappeared temporarily but are now all back giving me the anxiety because there is no silence in my head.
I read all your posts. It sounds like you are giving an exceptionally rough day - bullies, the physical pain and your snooping sister. I have 2 sisters and 4 brothers so know what it's like to argue with them and have them be all snoopy, it's like leave me alone!!!! I am hoping and praying tomorrow will be a much better day for you. Know I am here as with the others. Please try not to harm yourself and delete yourself. Take a step back from forums if need be. You are worth it my friend. As hard as it is, we need remember that we are all worth it to be loved for our goodness and the scars we hold. This includes you.
You know one funny thing. Last couple days been listening at least once or twice to Alessia cara's - Scars to your beautiful. If you have not, do listen. Her lyrics hit me particularly the chorus
But there's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
