Life and trauma

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Ru-bee ❤️. I have so much i need to talk to my doctor about, it's all swirling around in my head. 

Not quite deep breaths happening here, more very fast and shallow ones. My appointment was at 12 so my anxiety is that bit higher knowing it's going to be a wait. There's still 4 people in front of me 😕. 

[Former-Member]

Hey @rav3n are you around to chat for a bit? 

[rav3n]

hey @Former-Member ofc!! did you have any topics you wanna chat about? 

also was meaning to show you the paint by numbers i did this week (i did the last one with the budgie)... i can understand how frustrating these are now - but definitely rewarding.

 

[Former-Member]

@rav3n I'm not sure, just need something to take my mind off of things. There's so much swirling around in my head and I'm overthinking everything. 

Oh they are beautiful 😍. I have a book of colour by numbers but I haven't been able to do any yet, I look at them and just get overwhelmed by them. 

[rav3n]

i hear you, hate when those thoughts start resurfacing and swirling around!! @Former-Member sitting with you 💜

i think i read somewhere that you got the diamond art delivery early? have you unboxed and started it yet or saving it for later?

thank you! i found them a lil overwhelming to start too, i think having others to start it with sort of helped. i've got another paint by numbers to do as well so next time you feel like doing it, maybe i can start one with you so you're not alone. oh and i also bought this 'sparkle gem art' and a DIY crotchet kit to try out. have you done sparkle gem art before? the crotchet kit sounds super confusing to me, i did not understand the instructions at all... wish there was a video instruction for it!

[Former-Member]

Thanks @rav3n ❤️. I had my doctors appointment today but it really didn't go as planned. 

Yes I got my Stitch diamond art and I started it today, I only got a tiny corner done. 

That sounds like a nice idea. I have done a sparkly gem art before and I enjoyed it. Crochet is not too hard once you get the hang of it and understand the different stitches. If you watch some videos on YouTube they are pretty easy to follow. That's how I learnt was just watching videos ☺️. 

[rav3n]

@Former-Member sorry to hear that the doc appt didn't go as planned, did you want to talk more about this? 

oh its a Stitch one, can't wait to see how it turns out!!

ahh yep, i think YouTube videos is the way to go then. the instructions seriously sounded like gibberish to me haha. random question, have you listened to podcasts before?

[Former-Member]

@rav3n i had everything written down to say but it just didn't happen. The appointment was basically just me sitting in silence while he typed a support letter for housing SA. 

 

I have tried to but they honestly just frustrate me. I need music not talking, like when I'm listening to the radio i channel surf until I find a song playing 😂. 

[rav3n]

oh i'm sorry to hear @Former-Member i can imagine it wasn't easy writing up what to say either, but the fact that you tried matters a lot. sometimes in the moment, it's like our tongue gets tied and we freeze up, hey? but i want to celebrate the wins with you - the wins be 1. writing it out and 2. making it to the appointment.

aww the stitch diamond design is sooo cute!! i see the perfect square corner you've completed hehe.

so fair!! sometimes i'm like you, and i channel surf till i find a song. other days, i wanna hear someone yap so i can have something to focus on besides my thoughts. do you prefer music with or without lyrics? what genres of music do you usually end up listening to?

[Former-Member]

@rav3n it wasn't even that i froze up this time. I just couldn't talk cos he was too busy typing so I just sat in awkward silence while he read what he had written back to me a few times then that was it appointment over. Now I have the long wait until the next one which is on the 3rd March but I've just realised that I'll have to cancel that one cos that's when my house inspection is and right in between the 2 hour gap they give me. Now my anxiety has kicked in cos now I don't know when I'll get the see him next. 

I at least got to make a start on it, part of me wants to do more but I don't want to finish it too quickly.

I listen to all sorts. Don't have any specific genres that I prefer over others. I like both songs with lyrics and ones without.