Good Morning!

[oceangirl]

Hi @TAB 

[oceangirl]

@TAB 

Hope you're doing well

What did you do today? 

[Former-Member]

Good evening all,

I wanted to say thank you to all the lovely replies.

They hit my heart and I cried tears on my bathroom floor like a defeated child.

 I had tried to reply at the time, but seemingly the odds were saying something about third party nonsense, That I did not add. 

It became too overwhelming to continue my post.

I’d been cut off online in my personal life with every vindictive effort to get to me.

On this day the world did close in on me, and all I could do was sleep.

I’m not swimming in little pools, I’m far above.

The difference between drowning and surviving is not dissimilar. 

I choose to survive alone.
Whilst sympathy and supports have been kind to me.
I am the lone traveller again.

I don’t ask for understanding.

I know exactly what I have been through as daily haunting memories like to remind me.

Betrayal is a brutal, vindictive beast.

My eldest son has picked up the pieces where I’ve fallen completely drained.

I do not come pleading unfairness.

I know everything that is it is.
I’m just trying to live each day. 

I don’t justify, I am moving forward. I am trying to eat, to breathe.

I think that is enough for now.

Thank you all

@Glisten @TAB @Emelia8 @tonys @Jynx @Smiling-gecko

[TAB]

take it easy @Former-Member 

@Former-Member 

@Jynx 

[TAB]

Hi @oceangirl  been so hot so often here

not been exercising worth mentioning

lots appts., tests things to get past.

got sent to hosp overnight other day heart too fast , BP ok af though

now at home BP low and pulse normal, go figure.

starting study next week,bit scary. have to go to Adelaide for a day every fortnight all year

Having hassles with job network, they wont count  full time study as mutual obligation. apparently its at their discretion ha ha

Hope you are going okay . Am up for a while still

[Former-Member]

For sure @TAB 

I miss my dad.

If he was alive, this man would have not proceeded his parade. He would have fallen short with the look of my dad’s eye.

I missed out on his earth realm perspective of him.

But irrespective of this, dad always had faith in my strength to see something through. Against all odds. 
It’s just something we do. 😊

[ENKELI]

that's absolute bullshit @Oaktree. Apologies for the language but I feel strongly about that. Sounds like she's the one with the unfulfilling life.

I'm just frustrated because I have my mortgage, car loan, rego, electric and gas bills all past due and I have no money. Had I not resigned for my father I wouldn't be in this dilemma and he refuses to take accountability for his actions. It's always someone else's fault. A-hole. He and his bitch wife have more than 4 million between them and I could be living on the streets for all they care. Stepmonster hates me, she had a stroke last year and unfortunately she survived. Even my father said it was a shame she did.

I'll be right, I do have some family members who care thank goodness.

@Oaktree this is for you

[TAB]

mm  maybe just stick to your battles not someone else's hey ? @Former-Member  not your problem re actions of others

[ENKELI]

Sleep well @tonys, I sincerely hope you're feeling better.

While you're putting fire ants in the old bastards' drawer, make sure you do your worst to the stepmonster too. She's the reason my father is the way he is. She hates me and I wish the stroke she had last year had sent her to hell where she belongs.

As a Christian I am supposed to forgive and move on but she has made my life a living hell so I can't forgive what she's done. Bitch would rather see me living on the streets than give me money. 

Look after yourself my friend, this too shall pass but right now I want to sleep for a long time. I'm safe but tired of life at the moment.

[Former-Member]

For sure @TAB 

For sure