Good Morning!

[TAB]

pretty sure I recommended HBF @SmilingGecko  no matter.they pay me more than I pay them now that been with them like 10 years lol, bad luck for people just getting in.

govt also subsidises it through tax, but am not working so thats moot..

[StanD]

Excellent achievements @TAB looking after your health. I am proud of you roomie.

I wish I could say things are good - & they really are - I guess it's like you & getting tests etc, it's all so draining. Getting better, takes getting worse ?! It's a head flock.

Oh, how's this - there was an explosion of white butterflys.i have never seen. There was maybe 30 in my small backyard. And maybe 50 to 100 out the front. They are gone now. My cat ate 4! I found butterfly wing  in my masseuse sandals last night!

I think a sheep (oops,- sleep)test would be the worst. How does one sleep in weird circumstances? I'm glad you got it done ✅

Ok, reading up on Holter monitor, this sounds like can provide more detailed info. 

I'm really proud you are taking steps looking after physical health. I know that stuff is hard & last thing want to do.

My head is not doing well. In & out of various consciousness. Feelings of trauma & massive anxietys. I'm having go appointment tomoz if I can muster motivation. I only saw him this week. It's embarrassing. I know I am looking from unproductive perspective. 

With such no a massive blow to my MH, I have lost so much confidence. Unable to go places because I get overwhelmed & panic, claustrophobia feelings.

I am proud, I went to Dandenongs with PSW. It was 3 hr return trip. I felt so unstable the whole time but hey, in the end, I accomplished it.

I never have been so terrified of everything in my entire life. Terrified of breathing, moving, asking for help.

The 'health' 'business' Hey?! I don't have right to complain. They are my Lifeline - & yet I'm less naive that when I first started.

I swear it's a never-ending paradox. My poor brain.

Thanks for listening to my complaints. I might be a complainer from now on. IIM yet to decide. Ultimately, I want to empower everyone - use my experiences as way to connect.

For now, I am really only wanting to complain. I'm must be so fun to be around. but, hey, f. It - when was I ever allocated the task of bringing light & entertainment to the masses? 

Maybe, I am entitled to be one of 'those' people who is always grumpy. I secretly really like those people!

I have never been to broken Hill. Curious name. I bet it was out of this world experience. Well done TAB x 😘

[Glisten]

@SmilingGecko  I think I am going very average.

In reality, over the last three days I have:

attended 2 family law webinars

attended the Peer Group chat last night 

a job video interview for Bunnings

Hand dyed my sheets, pillowcases, quilt cover and bed throw.

Cleaned up the “Friends” sitting area at the Shed.

Yet I still don’t feel like I accomplished enough 🤷🏼‍♀️

@SmilingGecko how are you doing on this wonderful Friday?

G

[TAB]

nice re flutterbys and cat @StanD  had holter monitor b4 , dr said 3 days this time as complained of dizziness,, they say can also be coming from AF .. go figure crap pulse , take meds, get under 50bpm sometimes and they still blame the condition ... who knows

i hope MH gets easier. maybe its your 'çomfort zone' ... feeling good does not feel right (?)

broken hill was for hill of ore they 'broke' they disappeared a big hill and replaced it with waste. yes, was other worldly, good and bad, mostly good

[StuF]

Good to see you @StanD !

Thanks for the tag and touching base 🙂

[StuF]

Hi @Glisten 

Apologies, but you asked: February Sucks so far! My long term group therapy facilitator has left suddenly and my boss is basically forcing me out of my job- I'm rostered for a whole 2 hours next week! I've tried making contact with a DES agency, but we're having trouble getting anywhere really. I'll call them again next week.

That, and I have a significant birthday coming up soon. I don't like birthdays much full stop, but this is a 'big one' so I should be looking forward to spending it with loved ones, but I'd rather just go away until it's over...

Anyway, sorry for the rant- I needed to get that out,  you were just the unfortunate recipient! lol

[TAB]

.. @StuF  maybe it is better to spend bday on own. sulking is overrated soz lol ...

hmm, job was shite anyways, get nutha DES agency, etc ...take it easy

[Glisten]

@StuF  You’re welcome. I hope your situation improves.

I wish us all Lotto wins.

G

[StuF]

Yeah @TAB 

The worst thing is the facilitator. I finally got a phone call from the hospital to confirm they haven't found anyone to replace her on the Monday morning. Last week I swapped to Tuesday, which happens to be run by another facilitator I know from years back. She's lovely, but not nearly as good in this particular format. That and I never got the chance to say goodbye to the people in my other group...I might yet run into them by chance, but yeah...

Anyway, having a feel sorry for myself day today, so ner! lol

[StuF]

Thanks @Glisten 

Indeed re lotto!!!