Good Morning!

[MDT]

I did a bit of that on the train now @SmilingGecko
Will do some when I go to bed tonight

[MDT]

Thanks all who helped me

I had a panic onset today. When I realised I didn't do a module and we were all asked about it. I made up a story.

I rang sister and mum and just needed someone on the phone to calm me down.

There's so much of me trying to perform.

Its like there is a level and I am beneath it.

So I am continually pushing myself in to it.

I felt like my colleague was laughing st me today. THAT is how bad I felt.

But I also recall thinking that once when I was at my old workplace. It was just a perception.

Then I get into thinking spirals of how bad things are. I visualise myself getting hurt by others, getting injured, getting mocked, getting ripped off. These are horrible pictures I have of myself. Where things go badly.

My mind hates me

[TideisTurning]

I'm sorry to say I know the feeling @MDT Mind demons as I call them, can be awful sometimes. Super hard, almost impossible seeming, to try to quieten or shut down too. Something that I find a little comforting, if my mind starts imagining situations like the ones you've described, is trying to picture the possibility of what might come next. This could be something that actually happened (like contact with a supportive loved one following a difficult experience) or trying to picture what a supportive loved one might say or do in response. I'm wondering if that might be something you'd find helpful? Feel free to share with us if you'd like 😊

[MDT]

Well I had a chat to the folks and sister @TideisTurning

Was good. More a case of me telling them what was going on

[MDT]

thanks again forumites
have come up with my choice for relationship situation. Will just meet in person. anything else before that is silliness.
I got through today and for that I can reward myself - gonna watch house of the dragon

and REALLY try to be better to myself

Tomorrow is another day

[TAB]

Good Morning @MDT  hope you're okay. Look after your job. Perhaps ex is trying to sabotage it ? 
hi @SmilingGecko @StuF @Judi9877  and anyone else passing by 🤔

[StuF]

G'day @TAB  and all

Hope you have good days 🙂

[SmilingGecko]

@MDT, TAB @TAB is correct. I saw something in virgo astrology a while back with people getting new employment being deceived/mislead by bosses and also an angle of tension forming with your 7th house of romantic partnership affecting your job. I saw it and wondered how could it be as I know you are a virgo as I have a birthday near yours.  10th house also rules authority, direction in life and reputation and I've had similar issues bubble up myself. So it hasn't exactly been smooth sailing. I don't know where I saw it or read it but yes the placements are there. 

[TAB]

For what it's worth @MDT  phps comes under 'not that into you' ? Re txt goodbyes, drama etc 

ok you have seen you can get someone.

just go and get someone better and bit more on your terms not theirs perhaps 

[TAB]

Quiet day here @StuF paying rent think book physio Work on list... can define and tick off a few things today thinking What about you?