Far and Away

[Former-Member]

Hi @Zoe7  

I miss you being around.  I miss not being able to talk to you.  But thats selfish of me.

How are you doing?  Did you watch the footy tonight?  How about the cricket about to start?

I hope your day has been okay.

Sherry 

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member 

[Zoe7]

Not good @Former-Member 

[Former-Member]

Really sorry to hear that @Zoe7 

I just posted a response to you before your latest post, but it clean disappeared into thin air.

Oh well ... I guess it wasnt meant to be.  Dont have the heart to do it all over again.

I hope your teeth have settled down from the ABs and that your pain levels are manageable. Two weeks is a long time to have to wait to have the wisdom teeth out, lets hope its a relatively trouble free 2 weeks and it all goes to plan for then.

Should I talk about the footy?  I dont know if you watched your Lions live, or not tonight.  Dont want to break the news to you if you taped it and intend to watch it at another time.  Dont want to put my foot in my big mouth again, in other words.

Sherry 

[Zoe7]

I watched it @Former-Member but really don't care too much - even a win. Sorry about your Swannies - hoping they would win for you.

Unfortunately the feelings have further escalated during the day. I have written something that I will hold off posting until tomorrow but need to say some things to a few people first - just can't do that right now - it is too hard.

[Faith-and-Hope]

❤️ @Zoe7 

[Former-Member]

Things are bad then @Zoe7  when you cannot even get enthused about your footy team.

Yes I was disappointed the Swans lost, of course.  But my Raiders won tonight, thats some small consolation.

Perhaps once you have said what you need to say, to the relevant people, then those feelings of yours will settle somewhat. That would be good. Please do not allow all this to 'eat you up', as it has the potential to do.  Dont let it bring you down.  You are too special, too important, for that to happen to.

I'm feeling not so good myself tonight too.  It isnt anything to do with your situation, its to do with hubby.  I knew the steriods he's on for the encephalitis would make matters worse with regards to violence, and it has.  The past couple of days have been difficult.  To be honest, I'm a little bit afraid after what he did earlier. It was physically threatening behavior, and I was scared. It came on top of a less serious incident yesterday.  Some of the things I didnt want to talk about with you yesterday when you offered to listen.  I'm okay physically now, but emotionally I'm a mess. He said I provoked him, made him angry.  I guess I did, but it wasnt intentional, and I still dont know how.

But I'm sure you dont want to hear any of that. Do you have any plans for tomorrow?

Sherry 💕

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope You are my shining light 

[Zoe7]

I am past that point now @Former-Member Unfortunately there is no coming back for me now.

But you need to know that you do not deserve to be feeling as you are. That kind of violence is not okay no matter how sick your husband is. Are you able to keep yourself safe Sherry? If it escalates can you go somewhere that you will be safe?

[Former-Member]

Oh really @Zoe7 ?  That means you will be leaving us?  I may be feeling a little vulnerable and emotional right now, but I cannot stop crying now.  Will you be able to say goodbye, when the time comes?  I really dont understand any of this.

Hubby has taken some sleepers and is sleeping now .. I'm safe, just triggered I think.  Brought back memories of being held down and unable to move.  And yes, I have somewhere I can go if things get worse. Dont worry, I'll be okay. I expect he will be remorseful tomorrow.  

How about you Zoe ... are you safe?  You know we are all worried about you, dont you?  Everything just seems so damned unfair!  

Sherry