Doing anything for Christmas today?

[Blackcloud]

What are you all planning on doing for Christmas today? 🤗 

For me, nothing much really. Just doing my usual routine/stuff at home as is. My family and I don’t even celebrate Christmas xD plus, it’s gonna be 30 degrees here so that’s more than enough for me of wanting to stay at home during the day.

[Gremlin24]

@Blackcloud today I'm just sitting alone trying not to cry. Christmas is just another day to remind me of how I don't have alone i an and how hated i am.

I do hope you enjoy a relaxing day and stay cool.

[Blackcloud]

@Gremlin24 I’m very sorry to hear that, sitting with you.

I too feel the same way about myself, so you’re definitely not alone. Hang in there ❤️

Thank you, I just really need to start getting my sh!t together & do stuff that I’m supposed to or wanna do today xD. 

[Gremlin24]

@Blackcloud Thanks, it's such a horrible feeling to sit with. I just have to try to make it through the day if that's possible. 

Hope you get everything done that you need or want to.

[Blackcloud]

True, and same with me here. Everyday is such a struggle but we keep pushing through it no matter how hard it is for us, even when it feels like that there might be no light at the end of the tunnel for us at this stage. 🫂⭐️ @Gremlin24 

[Gremlin24]

@Blackcloud it's just exhausting to try to just survive. How long can one person live in a world where they aren't wanted. I'm no longer living, I'm merely just existing. 

[TopDeck]

Drinking alone and smoking alone.

[Glisten]

@Blackcloud @Gremlin24 @TopDeck 

I was in an abusive relationship for almost 13 years.

Had a life threatening illness, use to wake up crying every morning. Literally did not have a voice for more than a year. I didn’t have the ability to blow my nose or cough.

I’ve had to rely on the kindness of people for a place to live.

My possessions are my car, 2 suitcases and two boxes.

It has taken 13 months and as much counselling as I could, getting my medication right. It’s been the support I have received on the SANE Forum that got me through the rough stuff.

When you think that this is it forever. You’re stuck and nothing is ever going to change.
You change. You learn. You adapt. You can only control what you do.

Change is the only sure thing in life.

I did the Perth bridges walk/jog with my 38 year old daughter.

Had a little sauna. Drank lots of water. Warm salad lunch. 
Bedtime in a couple of hours.

[TopDeck]

Sorry, but I don't believe that. I've been 13 years in and out of psych wards, abused by security guards and nurses. Their first port of call is to inject me, not the last resort.

The so-called therapy and care has destroyed my life. I'm also known to the public as schizo and that opens a new layer. I've literally had to negotiate with business owners just to buy a feed. I've had to claw my way out of homelessness and everything just to survive. I'm on survival mode 24/7 and now it's gotten to the point where the hospitals and mental health have completely given up on me and would rather prosecute me in a court of law instead of actually helping me. I'm one of the people in the "too hard" basket. I've had my family torn apart from this diagnosis. I've had everyone, every person seem to think they know how I feel best and they try chuck me in the ward. Completely evil system. All it takes is one bad doctor, or psych or case manager or whatever and you're back at square 1. I have been dehumanized and treated like an animal, the security guard who punched me literally called me a "fucken dog" and a "fucken animal". If you all want to romanticize these hospitals, go ahead. But time makes fools of us all, and you'll see what happens. You'll see.