having a bad morning

[utopia]

@BlueBay. You hug your inner child and we will be hugging you. You are not alone.
Sweet Dreams.

[BlueBay]

@utopia@Shaz51@Faith-and-Hope@Kurra@Decadian

I went to bed and put my arms around me and cried.  I couldn't stop crying.  I tried to talk to my inner child and tell her it's okay. but i sobbed.

I ended up falling asleep and had a good night sleep. Still strange dreams involving my mum this time but it was okay.

Today is another day, i am focussed on what i need to do today.  I have a few appts and calls to make and need to fit a walk in there as well.  

Todays is the first day of dropping yet another strength in my meds ready for tomorrow to start the new ones.  I am nervous but once i speak to my psych today i will be okay.

One day at a time; actually not even - one hour at a time, one step.

I don't know what happened yesterday, i think the high BP, my anxiety and talking to the CAT team escalated my mood and thoughts.  but that was yesterday, today is today.

Seeing my therapist this afternoon which is what i need.

i hope everyone has a nice day.  Be gentle with yourself. xxxooo

[Kurra]

Love your positive start to the day! Have a really good one. 🎶💕🎶

[BlueBay]

Thanks @Kurra 

Hope your day is a good one too!! 🙂

[utopia]

@BlueBay. Good on you. Lots to keep you busy today. Stay positive. It is one step at a time.
Talk soon

[BlueBay]

Just sitting here with relaxing music on my computer and colouring in my mandela picture I drew.

It's too cold to go outside to do any gardening.  I have done the washing, vac the floors and just time for me before i go to my therapist.

It's amazing how calm i feel while colouring in, the only decision i have to make is which colour do i choose!!!

[Former-Member]

Hi @BlueBay 💜 Thinking of you. Sending hugs. 😚
I hope your appointment goes well.

I remember you mentioned that EMDR worked for you. I really think it would be worth having it again when you feel up to it.
Did you get on well with the psychologist who did the EMDR last time?

Even though it's draining having it done, it's worth it.

That's great you can relax and colour in and I saw your knitted scarves and bags, lovely. 😊

I used to knit and found it relaxing. For a long time now I haven't been able to do anything. I haven't found anything enjoyable, but that is slowly changing. Have had 5 visits with psychologist, 1 EMDR, feeling a little better.

Just wanted to say that there is hope, we can feel better. We just need to keep searching for the right help for us. xo 💜

[Faith-and-Hope]

Way to go @BlueBay ... ❣

You are creating those peaceful moments, and putting your attention on your home and family.  Doing a great job there, if you don't mind me saying so ....

Hope your appointment goes well.

❤️🍓🍒

[BlueBay]

My life sucks big time. My session was the worst ever. He told me he can't help me anymore it's out if his depth. Especially with BPD. I'm in my car sobbing. I hate BPD. I am so hurt I feel abandoned by yet another person. There's no point.

[Hamburger]

Hey mate..sorry to hear u are upset..its good to feel things...so ive been told.at least its not anger hey? I rotate from crying to wanting smash something or sh..trying to find some balance can b difficult...especially when things are not going our way...do u have any specific triggers for these unplesant moods??