Writing As A Form Of Therapy

[Meowmy]

I feel sad

I close my eyes in darkness

Tears remember

Those kind hearted friendships

Then life so huge

I lost them

Just lying 

Let time move away

Think I am not wrong

To know darkness alone

Fears so strong

That I can't imagine

Life onwards alone

Wish not

When the end bluntly arrive

But all the struggles to here

There was faith

Darkness deepens

Why

[Former-Member]

Why is depression so deceptive?

I thought that I was fine...

I told myself for months that I am fine

But when did fine to me become doing the same thing every day?

When did I start thinking it was fine to wear the same three sets of clothes for the last 4 months and sometimes for days at a time?

When did I begin to think that showering bearly once a week was ok?

Everyday I wake up and take my son to school but then I come home and stay in bed till it is time to pick him up.

I haven't done house work for weeks I just make excuses or say I will do it later, but I don't and then my partner does it .

I still cook dinner most nights and sometimes I do some baking but then I feel exhausted and sleep. I don't make it out of bed on weekends till 11 most of the time. My 6 year old gets himself breakfast. I should be up getting him pancakes like I use to do and then taking him to the park or do some cooking or crafts with him. I feel like I'm failing him as a mum.

Today I realised that I have to change.

I took my son to school and then came home but instead I had a shower. I shaved and washed my hair.

I did my face routine, actually ate lunch and cleaned the kitchen. Now I am about to go pick my son up from school and we are going to get some ingredients to make pizza for dinner.

I am going to try real hard to do better for my boy but depression just sneaks up and you don't realise it till it's already taken hold

[Meowmy]

@Former-Member most people don't understand

Little deeds, small acts, simple tasks will take so much struggles to complete

Each day I struggle to live

Every day I force myself to complete the daily tasks

The internal  fights for life, everlasting faith to humanity itself

In every each of us still here

[Maggie]

Tossed around by torrents

Of thoughts and many fears

Strength inside is weakened

Again so many tears

The waves that dragged me under

Now bring me to the shore

One tiny step is needed

No one asks for more

That step is hidden from my view

There’s darkness all around 

I’ve tried it very often

And always hit the ground

Instead my mind just wanders

To the home above the sky

Would there be a welcome 

Or would I hear a sigh

I’be heard so much is offered there 

I only hope for peace

I fear I might be missing

From the great eternal feast.

[Former-Member]

Hi @Maggie 

Sometimes writing down those painful thoughts and feelings in verse can be really useful.  I just want to check in with you about how you are this afternoon and will send you an email in a moment if you could check your inbox.

[Shaz51]

@Maggie, are you ok my friend

here for you xxx

[Shaz51]

@Maggie, I can see why you are upset my friend , you have lots of support here, hope you are ok xoxo

[Maggie]

@Shaz51  thankyou.

[Shaz51]

here for you my friend @Maggie , are you ok today , i have been worried about you xxxx

[Meowmy]

Hey, CC, tonight I lay sleepless again

And you are on my mind again

Somewhere ocean meets the sky

You step away in happiness with your lovely wife

To a life happy and fulfilling

I saw you walking one step another step

I lay feeling happy for you

It was that moment

I waited for you to disappear from my sight

The pain holds my breath for a long while

But I will this to happen

Only then my happiness will have meaning

That your life and happiness is complete

So goodbye my friend

I do remember

My promise to you

You in my heart

On that journey around the cradles

To the horizons

Goodbye my friend

To your happy life onwards