Writing As A Form Of Therapy

[outlander]

You are right in saying that @PeppiPatty i was the one comforting others and taking care of them let alone worry about me. I made sure everyone was ok including my nan when she was alive. When i had my licence is ring before bed to make sure things were ok and made sure my phone was on ringing in case pop rang. This was back when i was like 17 and in the morning before school as well and when i as younger than that i use to stay there on weekends to give pop a break and sometimes through the week once i got my licence.
Ive always been the comforter rather than the recipient.

[PeppiPatty]

If you want to @outlander.......could you find a simple version of the fairystory and re read it ?

When the Princesses Golden Ball slipped away from the Princess and the ball fell in the water, ahe started crying beccause the Golden Ball was all her chilhood loves and dreams.....

What would your Golden Ball be about? 

Check out this version...

http://thewonderofchildhood.com/2011/06/the-frog-king-or-the-frog-prince/

[outlander]

My golden ball @PeppiPatty would be the hopes ivr had of getting better. I cant see that happening at all now. They would also be the memories i have of my nan. The only thing i have left of her besides memories is a ring she gave me and i wear it all the time even to the horses.
The crystal ball with my hopes of getting better is smashed all over the floor

[outlander]

And this is the first yr im really able to grieve now that everyone else has gotten through that worsr stage of grieving

[PeppiPatty]

Here is a wonderful little version of the story.....Maybe this will have some ideas for you ? You certainly needed to grow up very quickly........it didnt seem that you have had any time to grieve your Grandma or spend time being a woman while you care for all.....

[PeppiPatty]

We are wiriting together and backward and forwards......lol......

I need to go because my husband is being twisy and wanting 24/7 attention but Ill write more.

@outlander.Im really proud of you in that you are recognising your self at such a young age of 21.......even though you feel really old...... you deserve to be feeling young.

Have you thought of seeing a proffessional grieving councellor? You can see your GP about it ? It will begin your own journey of re finding your "Golden Ball," your JOY. 

I care greatly 

[outlander]

Ok ive had a read of the link you shared here. Im not sure what your trying to get at? @PeppiPatty

[outlander]

I see a therapist already not for grieving. I just let the emotions come and go in regards to that @PeppiPatty

[PeppiPatty]

It is that @outlander that you have had too much responibility given to you ....I feel that you identified with your Grandma ...for instance the symbol of a ring wrapped around your finger.

I wonder that you need grieving councelling and remembering what you are like without this huge responsibility ??

[PeppiPatty]

You are a lot more responsible than I was at 21 @outlander......