Poem - A Poem in the Sand

[BlueBay]

@Silenusi am doing not bad.

good news though - i am going to be a grandma (nonna!!!) my daughter and her partner are due to have a baby in october.  she is half wy now and is showing. i cannot wait i am so excited.  i am going to be a great nonna better than my mum ever was to my own kids.

oh and we sold our house so we are packing our house as we speak.  it's a bit of a nightmare. so much crap everywehre.

[Silenus]

Hi @NikNik! Feeling the love...

How have you been? Sending hugs and happy vibes your way. 🙂 🙂

[Silenus]

Wow @BlueBay. That's huge news! Congrats on the impending nonna-hood.

Having just recently moved myself after buying a house, I feel your pain... hahaha... boxes everywhere...

I swore last time that I moved was going to be my last, and that I would just do it like the gypsies do... build a big bonfire, burn all my stuff, and start fresh... hahaha...

[NikNik]

It's always great to see a familiar face 🙂

[Faith-and-Hope]

Thanks Silenus ..... really appreciate it ..... 🤗

[outlander]

Another day has gone
my mind keeps holding on
memeories of yesterday haunts me
but im trying not to let them defeat me
I struggle to live
yet I still continue to give

black are my wings
seared from a range of things
produce a fake smile
but is it worth while?

Fear of you and me
fear of others
thats invisible to see
now how can that be

im a lost soul
travelling but nowhere to go
lost with too mnay thoughts
too many that haunts

I cant pretend im ok anymore
I cant fake it, just shut that door
im hopeles, helpless and im scared ill never get better
my pain is killing me
I wish I could just be set free

locked in a prison with no escape
where my weary soul will reside
theres nothing left inside
the fate of my soul is long gone
for I have done too much wrong

the walls close me in
my pain sings
sings so loud but no one can hear

ive lsot my friends
what have I done
ive lost my family
where have I gone wrong
her voice got quieter
the nights got longer
fading away, just trudging through the day

this pain, this physical and emotional pain
theres nothing else I seem to gain
except this stupid stupid pain

ive fallen apart, im barely breathing
how can this heart keep beating
when theres no healing
a loneley girl with vacant stares
screaming inside but no one cares
my tears roll down but I cant make a sound
lonley am I in so many ways
lonley are the nights
loneley are the days

she sits alone
alone at home
where the screams are silent
but the mind is violent
her insecurities hid deepeningand they did indeed eat her alive

her face says happy
but her eyes say pain
thats just how it goes again

[Faith-and-Hope]

That's an amazing piece of expression @outlander .... ❣️

Hugs n hugs for how you're feeling Hon ....

💙💐💕

[outlander]

thank you @Faith-and-Hope

i jsut created my own thread as its one of my coping strategies- it helps sometimes to write it out

this is one of my longer poems that i spent half an hour writing trying to get the msg out

[Faith-and-Hope]

You've done well with it @outlander ....

Its a form of self-care.

💐💕

[outlander]

thank you @Faith-and-Hope