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Re: Writing As A Form Of Therapy

Such a beautiful and thoughtful post @BlueBay Smiley HappyHeart

Re: Writing As A Form Of Therapy

Thanks @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @Appleblossom
I remember that dream so clearly. The peace and happiness I had while holding this baby girl.
Feeling the love for this little one is making me want to keep living. I want to be part of my grandchilds life so much. Maybe it's the inner child in me that missed out on so much can now do a lot with my own grandchild.

Re: Writing As A Form Of Therapy

So happy for you @BlueBay .... ❣

Re: Writing As A Form Of Therapy

This bit follows 'What can we do' WARNING this bit is about the evil side!

 

The Enemy

 

Have you ever come across someone or something so senseless, thoughtless, insensitive and unaware, that you had to wonder about their sanity? An entity which had an intensity of awareness that was barely even there; self-obsessed, arrogant, aggressive and often violent. I know you have. There would not be a life energy on this Planet that has not dealt with a descendant of Rhynio. Created with the best cells Cyano had to offer, but with an intelligence devoid of consciousness. These creatures are the closest things to pure evil in our known existence.

The core of the energy in these beings is profoundly immoral and wicked. They are the totality of unholy and foul. They hold within them a complete void of honour, corrupted with a depraved sense of filth. The force within their soul is the baseline of degenerate atrocity. Their very desire is hate and delusion and they express it with every physical and verbal action that they make. Contented with the journey of militant ignorance to avoid their guilt and maintain a self-image of perfection. Possessing an absolute intolerance to anyone or anything against their own beliefs.

Rhynios evolution focused on force. Intellectual, emotional, social and physical paths all evolved; but all to enhance the ability to exterminate. It began with tiny insects, the requirement to evolve an intelligence to devise strategies; an emotional ability to detach themselves from the actions of slowly and methodically tearing living flesh apart; the social bonding needed to form armies of millions and the obvious physical diversities to do all these things in such unlimited ways. But Rhynios evolutionary cocoon followed Cyano’s in every form, including mammals; embracing Human Beings.

Evolution does not occur on a physical level only, though it requires physical changes for intellectual, emotional and social evolution to take place. There are multitudes of changes in the ‘central nervous system’ for instance, so nanoscopic that even Human beings have not noticed them. Your brain, spinal cord and peripheral nerves make up a complex, integrated information-processing and control system; they regulate all the conscious and unconscious facets of your life. Every tiny difference changes the path of your thoughts.

Rhynios devolvement in consciousness required minute physical changes to the neurobiology of his form. The most notable differences are within the Limbic system of the brain, located deep within the temporal lobe. The limbic system is comprised of the cingulate gyrus, corpus callosum, mammillary body, amygdala and hippocampus. If you look at a cutaway view of the brain, you’ll see that it is divided by grooves, the area between the grooves is called the cingulate gyrus. Rhynios brain was formed with far less grooves.

 

The ‘corpus callosum’ is a wide flat bundle of neural fibers that connects the left and right cerebral hemispheres and facilitates interhemispheric communication. The communication between Rhynios cranial sides is somewhat muted, as this bundle of fibers is slightly lower in number with those of his evolution. This caused the Mammillary body and Hippocampus to dysfunction, which made aggressive violent actions easier to perform, as those bodies’ main functions are ‘re-collective and short-term memory’.

Also within the Temporal lobe lies the Amygdala, it controls social and sexual behavior along with other emotions; this lobe in Rhynios descendants is significantly smaller and functions only for the reasons of reproduction and self-gratification. With the knowledge of these differences, a close examination of the largest part of the brain, particularly Human ones, can identify the enemy of Cyano and Earth. Though it would require an autopsy! It is probably easier to tell by the simple behavioral patterns that these changes have developed.

These decidedly malevolent beings dwell among us in every form. The Human kind are the type that commit heinous crimes, rape and murder particularly against children and the helpless, or done amass and involving torture causing extreme physical and emotional pain. We are the second deadliest killer of our own kind, killing each other at the rate of approximately half a million annually. But the humble mosquito outdoes us by carrying diseases like Malaria, dengue and yellow fever, and encephalitis to three quarters of a million of us each year.

The oldest known mosquito with an anatomy similar to modern species was found in 79 million year old Canadian fossilized tree resin. This creature is the pinnacle of Rhynios darkened life force. With it he launched an air-borne biochemical attack that continues to our present day. Being of a size that can infiltrate all but a few habitations. It is a vile sniper, which can consume a deadly virus with no affect upon its own body. Doing so with the direct thought of injecting a slow suffering death into multitudes of victims, leaving only a small bump and an itch.

Just as Earth’s elite force includes fish, plants, insects, amphibians, reptiles, and mammals; so does Rhynios. ‘Ullimunatu’ is the name of the secret organization that formed in the late sixteen hundreds, to refine the efforts of Rhynios descendants’ one true focus. With an absence of consciousness the ‘art’ of survival comes down to the ability to extinguish life energy and consume its physical form. Even if consumption is not necessary these creatures are obsessed with extinction. The one true focus for a darkened life force is death.

Death and the extinction of life energy in all the multiple forms that dwell on Earths skin, is exactly what she is trying to prevent. The Ullimunatu have not yet cottoned on to the fact that a super-conscious being is working against them. Earth and those she has chosen to communicate with, had deliberately kept this evil organization without knowledge that of fact. But now that the de-sensitization program had begun, this corrupt group were becoming aware. Particularly the most powerful intelligent creatures among it, the consciously devolved Human Beings.

What plans these Humans will devise to further manipulate or disrupt Earths attempts to save us, are still unknown. They are more than willing to end the energy of their own lives to exterminate ours. But as yet they do not know of Earths existence as a living being, nor do they comprehend her abilities. Their organization is far more established than our elite little order, but we have the advantage of being capable of communicating openly. We do not have to hide behind self-deceptive masks, we can appear as we truly are.

With millions of species and forms of life energy encircling her, Earth has a lot to defend. Then there’s the complication of sorting out the good from the bad, or the devolved from the evolved; as within the majorly multiple numbers of each species, there is definitely a bit of both. Without an autopsy or a super-consciousness we are left with a guess, only Earth can actually see a life energies aura and whether it is light or dark. Even she cannot tell which way some of the endless shadings in-between may be, if they would tend more towards goodness or lean on the side of evil.

For almost the same length of time that Cyano has been building a positive force, Rhynio has been constructing a darkness. Using physically stronger life energy forms to act against their foremost focus and protect other weaker dark energy forms. Though these forms may have been weaker in muscle and bone, they were superior in intelligence and the ability to emotionally harm. With 3x1033 (Three thousand quintillion) living forms on the Planet, the process of mass extermination needed to be developed.

Emotional and physical pain activate similar brain regions, the anterior insula and the anterior cingulate cortex. Along with 100 billion nerve cells is a slightly greater number of neuroglia which serve to support and protect those cells. Each cell may be connected to up to 10,000 others, passing signals to each other via as many as 1,000 trillion synaptic connections, equivalent by some estimates to a computer with a trillion bit per second processor. Information transmission within the brain, is achieved by using a combination of chemicals and electricity. It is a very complex process involving a variety of interrelated steps.

A nerve cell, or in more popular language a ‘brain cell’, is an electrically excitable cell. Unlike most body cells, those in the brain are only able to divide to make new cells during foetal development and for a few months after birth. After that, no new brain cells are formed, although existing ones may increase in size until adulthood. They are designed to last a lifetime. They process and transmit information by transforming their electric excitement into a chemical substance. Each one maintains a voltage gradient across its membrane.

If the voltage changes significantly, an electrochemical pulse called an ‘action potential’ is generated. This electrical activity can be measured and displayed as a wave form commonly called a ‘brain wave.’ This wave travels rapidly along a path known as the ‘axon’, and is transferred across specialized connections known as a ‘synapse’ to a neighbouring cell. A typical cell fires 5 - 50 times every second. Each individual cell can form thousands of links with others, giving a typical brain well over 1000 trillion connections.

Functional cells create a ‘Neural Network’ but they are not static, the more signals sent between two cells, the stronger the connection grows; and so, with each new experience and each remembered event or fact, the brain slightly re-wires its physical structure. With all this information we can understand that emotions physically change us. Mass destruction cause mass emotions that in turn create mass changes amongst the masses of forms. When the emotional harm began in the pre-dinosaur era, the neuroglia’s ability to support and protect our brain cells weakened.

Rhynio had created the perfect weapon, our own cells were damaging us in every way. Causing destruction throughout our very own ‘Neural Networks.’ Carrying that damage on through generation to generation, and changing the very voltage and chemical substances within our bodies. The effect was almost mutating us into one of Rhynios’ own descendants, changing the structure of our brains. But not quite, the positive descendants of Cyano have the advantage of a highly advanced consciousness, the damage was compensated in other ways.

The weapon was released with the Pelycosaurs. Inhabitants of the super-continent Pangaea, which was what the land mass of Earth was called when it all fit together. This area functioned severe extremes of climate and environment due to its vast size. The south was cold and arid, with much of the region frozen under ice caps. Northern areas suffered increasingly from intense heat and great seasonal fluctuations between wet and dry conditions. This three meter long reptile, had sail-like structures on its back thought to have acted as heat exchangers, catching the sun in the morning to help warm it.

It was the first true genocide Rhynios kind achieved. Though mammal-like reptiles known as Therapsids had managed to evolve from the victim, finding an internal solution to keeping warm. But it was not the cold that had wiped out the Pelycosaurs, nor volcanic eruptions, earthquakes or massive asteroid impacts. It was carefully planned, unemotional commitment of selected mass murder. Undergone by creatures the size of tiny ants! Completed with the knowledge and intelligence of how to cultivate an elaborate trap.

‘The Allom’ was the name these creatures responded to, but they did not work alone. There was a diabolical partnership between them and an evolutionarily devolved tree. This tree provided a good habitat for the Allom, so they chose to keep herbivores away from it. They did this by tearing the living flesh off of anything that touched it. To enable them to rip and swallow at their leisure, they learnt to cultivate a particular kind of fungus; they then used this fungus to build huge inviting hollow platforms.

These structures were dotted with hundreds of thousands of tiny holes - and inside each hole hid an Allom. If the prey that stepped onto their fungus trap, had the scent of the Pelycosaur, the Allom began grabbing at its limbs and pulling them in opposite directions as others began injecting lethal venom. The Pelycosaur were highly social and lived in large herds, comprising of large numbers of families. When another Pelycosaur came to the aid of a victim, it too would be caught. The Allom would carpet immense areas with their traps, thus eventually capturing and finalizing all herds.

This method was repeated mercilessly toward species after species, representing the last gasp for much early prehistoric life, marking a biological dividing line that few animals crossed. But luckily for us Cyano’s positive creations evolved a counter-intelligence and Earth grew enough to shift her land masses and thwart this enemy. Eventually the Allom were constricted to a very limited area, an island that in time Earth was able to sink and dissolve under the Basaltic magma of the deepest ocean. But the experience had formed a new emotion, positive life forms now knew horror.

It is the physical response to horror that the Ullimunatu have been experimenting with since they were established. Catechol-O-methyltransferase degrades the ‘fight or flight’ instincts in a living being. It does this by inactivating the chemical transformation of the necessary electrical voltage required for these instincts, and that is the chemical Rhynios kind forced positive life energy forms to create. Darkened life energy forms are not affected by it, as it requires at least a level of consciousness to be produced.

An entirely new chemical had been created within the very cells in our brains. We have always had a chemical that caused the emotion of fear, its purpose was to alert us to danger. Rhynio had forced our own bodies to create a new substance, it has an evil purpose. Terror is far greater than fear, it does much more than just alert, it freezes the absolute soul. It does this by scrambling all of the voltage and chemicals in our neural network, causing a physical inability for thoughts to form or flow. Terror is the dark side of fear.

Re: Writing As A Form Of Therapy

This bit follows 'The Enemy'

Meanwhile, back at the Ranch

 

What had started as one room had grown into a headquarters of many acres. Entire ‘Core-Scrapers’ were being built, they had earned that name by delving nearly a hundred kilometres underground. In the mass of information Earth had helped upload into Doctor ‘C’s computers, were some extra-genius subterranean building principles, along with materials that far out did mere fly ash for concrete. Fly ash is such an ineffective material, it’s really only used because it’s been proved it is far too toxic to be freely released into the atmosphere. So large companies decided to turn this waste problem into profit.

Fly ash is the ash removed from the exhaust gas of burning coal at power plants to generate electricity. The ash is removed from the exhaust by air pollution control equipment such as electrostatic precipitators before the exhaust is emitted through stacks or chimneys into the atmosphere. Thus, fly ash is a byproduct of burning coal for heating or generation of electricity. Over 70 million tons of fly ash is generated each year in the United States alone, of which only about 1/3 is used. The remaining 2/3 must be carefully disposed of in order to avoid any damage to the environment.

But when you consider this ash has substances like hexavalent chromium, cobalt, lead, manganese, mercury, selenium, thallium and vanadium, along with dioxins; it’s hard to understand why it’s allowed to be used at all, or why the processes that create it are! Earth had uploaded the description of a magnetic field border, which would withstand far greater pressure than anything used in the present subterranean building procedures. Tiny magnets placed precisely, with specific pulses of electricity, could create Colom’s of such strength that would withstand seemingly impossible pressure.

A hundred kilometers down, means about a hundred million kilograms of pressure! There are other problems of course, moisture in the upper levels and heat in the lower. Earth had come up with the most natural hydrophobic biotechnology – bees. Within the delving magnetic Colom’s she requested hexillions of bee’s to populate, as they did so they built their hives. Some molecules interact with or attract water molecules so that they can mix freely with them. Others don't, and they are the substances that bee’s build their hives with. Beeswax is made up of neutral molecules that do not interact strongly with water molecules.

The Bees were encouraged to forage and feed amongstLinum Usitatissimum’, an amazing plant that has been dated back to thirty thousand years ago. It’s used as a fiber to weave cloth with, an oil can be extracted from it for nutrition and medicines or polishing wood, and it is even grown as an ornamental plant in gardens. ‘Usitatissimum’ means most useful, we just had no idea just how useful plain old ‘Flax’ could be. Within the magnetic Colom’s, created with the digestion of Flax, Beeswax becomes completely impenetrable by moisture.

 

In the lower levels, the construction crews were going where no man had even gone before. For the ‘Flaxwax’ to work the heat had to be extracted somehow. It is not just the heart of the Earth that creates heat at these levels, the core being five to six thousand kilometres down, is still a huge distance from the constructions; but the pressure itself creates a Thermal energy of its own. The magnetic Colom’s neutralize the pressure – but not the heat. Earth needed to create a Thermal equilibrium that was at least habitable, if not comfortable, for Living Beings.

In Thermodynamics, Entropy is a measure of the number of specific ways in which a thermodynamic system may be arranged. Commonly understood as a measure of decay towards thermodynamic equilibrium. The term heat is taken as synonymous to thermal energy. Thermal engineering concerns the generation, use, conversion, and exchange of heat transfer. Earth’s upload included an inner-Earth Thermal engineering that was impossible for mere Humans to perform.

 

Earth had to use one hundred percent Entropy. All modes of heat transfer where needed. She uses Advection as the transport mechanism of extracted internal moisture substances from one location to another, utilizing the motion and momentum of that fluid; conduction and diffusion to transfer the contacted energy from the magnetic Colom’s and the fluid; Convection is used to transfer the energy of those objects to the surrounding environment, due to its motion; and finally radiation itself, she uses the transfer of energy from the movement of all these charged particles within all these atoms, to convert it into electromagnetic radiation, which she then uses to strengthen the Colom’s.

 

But there is a reason no mere Human could do this. Although we have access to one and a quarter million trillion liters of water on Earths skin, that moisture is but her sweat, used to make her tears of rain. Like most living creatures she has many, many times more moisture within her body. Scientists are aware of the wet anomaly between five and fifteen hundred kilometers below the surface, but they have no means of accessing it. Nor have they even imagined that she expelled the surface moisture to assist Cyano with his creation of physical forms for life energy.

 

In a sense, although we are all forms of Cyanobacteria; we are all also ‘blood’ relatives of Earth herself. We are, in all our living forms, mongrels, and mixed breeds – a combination of Cyanobacteria and Planet! And what an exquisite variety of babies have been born from that partnership! When you consider both our ‘Parents’ are of morphological gestations, it is no wonder that we have such infinite differences between our Brothers and Sisters.

 

The down going oceanic lithosphere, more easily described as the sea beds being forced back under the surface by tectonic movement; carry with them large amounts of water into deeper regions of the mantle or Earths inner body. The water contained within these subducting slabs is thought to remain unaffected by the surrounding high-temperature, since it is contained within the centre of the cold lithospheric or land slabs. It is not the process of evaporation that keeps our H2O pristine and clean, but the pressure involved in submersion.

 

If this submersive filtration did not occur, we would not survive. All Earthbound life relies on a particular formation of liquid. Given the common name of Water it is a colorless, transparent, odorless, liquid which forms the seas, lakes, rivers, and rain and is the basis of the fluids of all living organisms. Everything is made of atoms, they join together to form molecules. Water has three atoms, two Hydrogen and one Oxygen. When anything else is present, it is no longer water.

 

The process of evaporation and formation of clouds, raining down tiny droplets of moisture, is merely a more successful way of distributing surface water more evenly. It is within Earths body that metals, minerals and other pollutants are drawn out; and her body does not perceive these excess materials as waste. When Cyano’s kind created the atmosphere, which then in turn created the bubble which we call the Ozone layer, that surrounds the entirety of Earth – a limited amount of materials were presented.

 

A limited amount of materials being used by an unlimited, eternally evolving, amount of life forms. Earth is the Queen of recycling. From every droplet of every cell she will extract everything, and re-distribute each item to reinforce every category of form. The hardest working Woman on our Planet – is our Planet! She is also our most intelligent and strongest form of life! As it is not just water that needs to be distributed around her body, she has devised a processing system that combines many needs.

 

Yes she has the strength to move solid matter within or without her body, but she has the intelligence to know it is not the most effective manner in which to do so. A liquid or viscous matter, set on a path of continuous motion, will unendingly attend to all manner of requirements. If you add water to rock or metal you get an increase of melting or lava. In turn this will give you an increase of effect ability for all material distribution. This mixture of moisture and solids in a liquid form, is to Earth like our blood is to us.

 

So to simplify a very complex strategy, Earth diverted the plasma of her blood around the bases of all the magnetic Colom’s, to act as a cooling and heat extraction system. The Core-scrapers became like Tumour’s in her flesh, and her body conformed around them. This made these constructions ‘living buildings’, the walls have a blood-flow that is regulated by a heartbeat! The temperature within them may fluctuate, according to biological changes within Earth herself.

 

This form of living tunnel is perfect for maintenance, for just as when we cut our skin the blood coagulates, dries and seals the wound; so does Earths blood for any breeches in the outer Core scrapers walls and base. She had effectively given us a haven from the forces of non-atmospheric space that was to bombard her skin. Though there were so many more technical details, more effective ventilation and environmental conditioning, a means to use heat and the magnetic force to generate electricity, and many medical advances to name but a few.

 

With these new buildings delving deep into true ‘inner’ space, the habitable area of Earth had effectively doubled. With additional supplements of information, for example the explanation of how Cyano’s ancient kind use radioactivity to convert water into Sunlight, huge plantations and farms could be constructed underground. Additional explanations like how to extract the water from the rocks and minerals at certain subterranean levels, were all a part of preparing living forms for the unsurfacable era; when the Earths outer atmospheric ‘force field’ shuts down.

 

The numbers of what had become known as ‘The Earth Haven Society’ had grown exponentially, the Governments of all countries on the Planet were now involved. Amongst Presidents, scientific and mathematical geniuses, religious leaders and philosophers; Niqua was still the main communicative link with Earth herself. This was of Earths own choosing. Niqua was of average intelligence, she did not have a focus on any specific area but she did have an electro-chemical malfunction within her body.

 

This malfunction, diagnosed by her own species as depression and anxiety, was actually a blessing in disguise. For all those living beings that suffer from these aliments are indeed from a strain that are recovering from the prehistoric attacks of Rhynios armies. With over three hundred and fifty million sufferers, this manifestation is seen as a global plague. But the actuality is that it is a living healing, Rhynios secret weapon was back-firing.

 

As the positive descendants of Cyano were subjected to an overload of Terror, it was as if their soul’s eyes were being opened. No longer could they be blinded to the pain and suffering of the evil forces that tortured them. Not only could they perceive and remember evil deeds, but they were retaining those memories. The selective parts of the brain, that had been mutated by Rhynios introduced chemical of Terror, were repairing. Within a few generations Cyano’s descendants would be able to function with their original complete abilities.

 

And within that first upload Earth had installed a neurological scanner that could identify this rising ability. An ability that would not be held within Rhynios descendants. This would give ‘Earth Haven’ a way to filter out the enemy inside the positive fortress. Niqua would be required for the building and testing of the prototype, as her abilities were all but completed – generations ahead of the times. Her anxieties were a form of sensing evil, her depression a reaction to the numerous amounts that surrounded her.

 

This filtration was essential, every day the enemy was gaining access to highly technical information; information that they would twist. The certainty being, they would use it against us. It was understood that the enemy would be building their own Core-scrapers, and they would be duplicating all of the systems involved in them. But Niqua assured her leaders there was a confidence in her link to Earth. The enemy had been needed, certain skills, certain basic knowledge – general man-power if you will.

 

Earth had a plan, still obscured from Niqua’s vision; but she knew the enemy would dissipate, disappear, or disintegrate. But now was not the time. Many innocent beings were mingled with the enemy, to save them, Earth had to keep the enemy safe as well. After the filtration, it would not be long before it would be impossible for either side to interact with the other. For now the importance was to gather life forms, the more that could be gathered, the more that could be filtered.

 

The emergence of this negative force was not factored into Earth’s original plans. Having had Billions of years to concentrate on what needed to be done, she now had a mere Century to reorganize her thoughts. A problem which took all of her conscious thought not to blame on her best little friend. This one cynical energy had disrupted all of her best laid plans. Her desperation was intense when she realized, she could not save us all.

 

Those positive descendants of Cyano that remained within the Enemies grasp, would still have a chance. But the percentage of that chance would reflect upon the percentage of repair that those areas in their brains had performed. There would be those that although continuation of life was impossible, continuation of positivity could still be. As in any War there would be the need for sacrifice. Like double-agents on suicide missions.

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This is an 'erasure' poem. This means it was written by selecting words out of context from another piece of writing. The original piece of writing I selected the words from was a much longer, free association piece by my companion. He and I have played this writing game before and he has given me permission to experiment with his words in this way.

 

sirens in the dark place

warning, with alarm calling

the purgatory of the

unmade mind

 

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Re: Writing As A Form Of Therapy

hi all,

i have had quite a low over the last few weeks and went back to creative writing, i posted this on another thread and it was suggested to me to put it on here im nowhere near as creative as some of the other people here but im gonna post it anyway.

 

A line…

A straight line…

This line is what I follow to get from point A to point B,

I must stay on my line,

Yet as I walk along it the end point seems further and further away,

A leaf…

I step over it,

A road…

I cross it,

I go up and down steps,

I climb over walls,

I jump through hoops,

But I stay on my line,

My line is safe,

But still point B stays just out of reach,

I continue to walk my line of safety till a pole gets in my way,

I can’t step over it,

I can’t climb over it,

I can’t jump through it,

The only way past is to go around it,

Around it…

I can’t do it,

I must stay on my line,

 My line is safe,

But my path is blocked,

Should I turn around…?

No, I’ve come too far,

Maybe if I wait someone will move it,

But how long will that take…?

To get past I have to go around,

But I must stay on my line,

My line is safe,

But if I don’t go around then I am stuck,

But I must stay on my line,

My line is safe,

I see a new line,

It is different to mine,

It goes around the pole and not in a straight line,

Could I do it?

It is so different to mine,

How do I know this line is safe?

I won’t know unless I try,

Slowly I lift my foot,

I place it down off my line,

As I step on the new line I suddenly feel free

It’s like a boarder fell down,

But how can this be?

As I follow my new line around the pole,

I noticed that my old line stopped at the pole,

The pole was point B what I saw was beyond,

But where my old line ended,

Was my comfort zone.

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because @Former-Member its really good! and says alot ( has alot of meaning)

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I really like this @Former-Member

 

My - how much work it took to stay in your comfort zone - how liberating it must feel to be out of it

 

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