Writing As A Form Of Therapy

[BlueBay]

Tonight is not a good night
For all I want to do is fight
My head is saying go away
And just sit by the bay

Crying 😭 screaming
It's not fair anymore
My life is one big mess
That will never get fixed

It's all over
I don't know what else to do
Just to get through
My life is one big mess

Hospital is the place for me
Wish it was soon rather than later
No one cares not even my stupid psych
Can't even return my call

Do you know how that hurts
Well I don't care anymore 😥

[Former-Member]

Ah @blue bay, I so feel for you. It's incredibly challenging to feel 'left'..
You and @Silenus have a beautiful outlet in writing.
I hope to get to this myself, with more true 'fadin' happening.
I've been lost a long time...
Big kissy hugs to you both..❤😘🌌

[Appleblossom]

Glad to hear you are being productive @Silenus

I call it my writing cave .. I need to get lost in it before I am regularly productive.  I just do bits now .. am still in out and about phase of life ... maybe more writing when I retire ..

Fiction can address lots of important issues.  

Hi @Former-Member and @BlueBay Take care

Apple

[Silenus]

Indeed @Appleblossom

Fiction can address lots of issues...

It can explore those issues in great and meaningful ways...

It can look at the what ifs...

It can even look at the impossible ifs...

But most of all, fiction is our restless creative intellects, playfully looking for answers...

Fiction is the spoonful of sugar that makes the medicine go down...

Fiction is often our way of dealing with fact...

When fact meets fiction, dreaming minds collide...

[Silenus]

Invisible Wars
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Not many people understand the dedication needed to stay alive,
Or the huge amounts of energy it requires just to survive;

This is the problem with mental health issues... people can't see it, and so there is at least some belief that it's not real,
And all these heaped-on expectations aren't exactly a great help as we try to deal with what we feel;

Invisible wars in our heads, and us lying there dying and blee.ding,
Reaching out for a hand, but not getting the help we are needing;

"Snap out of it" is not a useful or valid thing to say,
And there's very mixed results from once a year being asked "Are You OK?";

It's not enough, it's not enough, and compassion and patience need to be learned;
As we slowly rebuild our inner worlds from invisible wars burned and churned.

[Silenus]

In order to survive bipolar, I have to forcefully dull myself down when I am too high or forcefully lift myself up when I am too low... constantly, I am trying to be something other than myself just to try to survive being myself... now... do you start to see how difficult this whole thing is...

[Silenus]

Questions
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Where is my head?
Hiding in bed?
Where is my heart?
Playing its part?

Pumping blood through my vein?
Like my head is driving me insane?
All of these asks?
Just unfinished tasks?

Why do my head and heart think and beat?
Searching for purpose in this suit of meat?
Why do my heady thoughts take me so high and so low?
Why does my beating heart continue to make me go?

With beating heart and questing thought, I face this world of strife?
Sure. It stops me asking questions. It helps me be grateful for life.

[BlueBay]

Always enjoy reading your posts @Silenus

[Silenus]

Huggles @BlueBay

Thank you. It means a lot to be cared,
Emotional pain, vulnerably shared;
Especially when I hate that man in the mirror most,
Raising a glass to my inner alcoholic to toast

I may be evolved, but I ain't immune,
And we all jerk to that same old tune;
Shuffling and struggling to stay upright,
On the wrong side of right I continue the fight.

They gonna pry my cold dead life out of my fist,
No matter how it hurts, I continue to exist;
Never ever will I pass by my own hand,
These castle walls are always manned.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Ffm48

Good to see you .... 😊

Yes, I agree, your story is hard to put down .... it is amazing, and simple in its form but sooo powerful too .... !

Well done .... ❣

Not only in the writing of it .... well done in the survival of it, the whole journey with all its trauma, recovery, reparations, revelations .... and perhaps most potently, you may have found a formula for "fairytales" that others can write to achieve healing and closure in their own lives ....

This is a very powerful voice you have found ...

Hugs n hugs ... 💜🌷💕💐🌸🐠❤️😘