Writing As A Form Of Therapy

[bipolarbunny]

@StuF That's beautiful Stu, great work, I love it! Keep posting!

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[Former-Member]

Wonderful @StuF  mental illness can be a wonderful productive thing.....thank you

[bipolarbunny]

@Former-Member Thanks my friend, yeah I had a big clean up today actually. House is fresh and clean all ready for mum tomorrow. 5 mins after she walks in there'll be stuff strewn everywhere lol!

We are getting some much needed rain here in country Vic too. Being under the doona is most appealing! I'm heading there right now! xx

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[StuF]

@Former-Member @bipolarbunny 

Thanks for the feedback! Much appreciated 🙂

Too right about mental illness, sometimes at least 🙂

[Silenus]

Hi @Former-Member 

Wow. I am honoured and humbled that peeps keep finding this thread and making it their own with their amazing words from the deep wellsprings of their lived experiences...

Much love and respect...

[StuF]

@Silenus 

Many thanks for kicking it off!

[Former-Member]

Hello @Silenus  thank you for starting this thread.  Unfortunately I don't have words of wisdom or poetry that everyone else. But I can enjoy and learn from others work.

i love what you said.." The mind and body can take no more, and so a period of rest is forced upon us" re depression. This is so true. Maybe it is the bodies way of protecting us from total overwhelming burnout? 

[BlueBay]

I don't know how to feel anymore

is it happiness, fear, sad, 

there are so many mixed emotions

I don't know how to feel anymore

One minute I am ok

the next I am a mess

and then I breathe 

and then feel a mess

I have these visions in my mind

of where to go and where to hide

and then i see that I get help

and all my fear just melt

the fear inside of me is so intense

it rips me apart from end to end

it breaks my heart to see whats done

for i am just the little one

i sit and cry on a rock

my heart is broken

i need to get away from here

and just sit and be near

i need to fix my broken heart

and a childhood that was taken away

i have fear inside 

for i am not strong

I sit and wonder why 

but i can't work it out anymore

sometimes i feel that it's too easy

to just say goodbye

some days i struggle to get out of bed

i have so much going on in my head

it tells me stuff that i should do

and then i fall into a heap

i really don't know what i am saying

it's just what's in my head today

if i could hide away for a while

but some days i dread stay

i feel sometimes i should go

and leave everyone alone

for i have wrecked everything

and i get no forgiveness

if only they could say sorry

and validate the things they did

but that will never happen i know

so i should just go

[StuF]

@BlueBay 

Excellent! Heartfelt and relatable.

I just hope you don't just go

[HenryX]

@BlueBay 

Hello BlueBay ,

You have expressed sentiments, feelings and wishes in your poem, that I, and I think, many on the forum, would feel and could identify with fairly often

It can all seem like a roller-coaster ride, as I have also seen others talk about. The high points just seem to accentuate the lows.

I was talking with a counsellor, a short while ago. It seems that with the severe impact of MH issues, there often comes the suggestion or question of considering a way out. It hasn't come up in our couple of sessions, though I have, at times, also had those thoughts. I didn't want to divert from the topics that we have been discussing in this series of visits. However, it has been "on the tip of my tongue", a few times.

Participation in discussions, on the forums, has certainly helped me to feel less alone, more responsive, and less reactive. That participation has also given me the feeling that I can contribute in some meaningful and worthwhile way, as well as receive acknowledgement, intellectual and emotional support. Looking back through your posts and responses, it is clear that you often give others that support and positive affirmation.

The inclusion and feedback that I have received in my time here, since February has been really affirming and reassuring for me.

Thinking about your comment on work, the other staff and customers. It is certainly good to feel comfortable with other staff. Sometimes, though not always, it is the person you least expect, who will give you support when you need it most.

I have worked as a food and drinks waiter, employment officer (public service), school bus & taxi driver, lawn mowing contractor and brickies labourer. I broke up the connections with other people, with whom I interacted in each of those occupations.

5% - I'd never want to see again,

20 – 30% - I could take or leave,

remaining ~ 60+% made my work day pleasant, and in many cases, even rewarding.

Though subjective and very rough, it interested me to note, that the analysis was close to even on each of the occupations, with staff or clients/customers.

Your back pain and other issues cause you distress. However, I do hope that your work will give you, not just financial support, but personal, intellectual, and emotional support and returns.

With Best Wishes,

HenryX