โ27-06-2018 12:35 PM
โ27-06-2018 12:35 PM
hello @Sans911, I read you other message , please stay my friend , sending you lots of hugs
โ27-06-2018 12:45 PM
โ27-06-2018 12:45 PM
Hopefully she will be back soon @Shaz51
but I've caused a great deal of distress to someone I care about. If my being here is too much for her to bear than I will leave if it requested. I'm always messing things up, and upsetting the apple cart. I should have acted much ch, much earlier but my communication skills suck when I'm hurting. Then I left it too late. Then I didn't discuss because I didn't want to discuss it front of the whole forum. So now I really hate myself for fking up yet again. These are times I wish I didn't survive.
โ27-06-2018 12:55 PM - edited โ27-06-2018 01:08 PM
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โ27-06-2018 01:00 PM
โ27-06-2018 01:00 PM
she will be back @Sans911
โ27-06-2018 01:12 PM
โ27-06-2018 01:12 PM
There's a whole lot of hurt in your words there @Sans911. You're doing really well to connect with others for support. Sending you a check in email now. Take care ๐ป
โ27-06-2018 01:17 PM - edited โ27-06-2018 01:19 PM
โ27-06-2018 01:17 PM - edited โ27-06-2018 01:19 PM
You are just human @Sans911. We all do things we regret. Youโve tried honestly and genuinely to make amends. I know it doesnโt feel like it when you are in it, I know I felt ill about Maz for months but Iโm pretty sure you know you might act differently if it happened again for you. Itโs so hard because a different reaction may have happened as well from the other person. We never know what will happen. In writing this post Iโm aware that it sounds like I have lots of judgements about said incident but I honestly donโt. I very much see from both sides. Iโm just trying to take emotion out of it. My therapist has pointed out that every time we come on the forum we take risks. We take risks that weโll be hurt and we take risks that well hurt others and itโs so hard because the risks are public. Itโs a heightened risk because we are all at the high end with sensitivities.
Go gently on you as I hope she is going gently on her. You donโt know what is going on for her either. There may be other things at play. Itโs so easy to write this stuff to you when itโs not me at the centre of it. I think youโve handled it the best way you could. I hope you can forgive yourself. Every interaction we have is just part of a learning curve.
Iโd miss you if you went into hiding too. ๐๐ค
โ27-06-2018 01:20 PM
โ27-06-2018 01:20 PM
@Sans911 I have grown very fond of you though I dont say it much.
I love your discrete move from the 911 avatar to your more peaceful umbrella at the end of the pier. It says a lot about your strength and your journey. You are reflective, very supportive and also humorous. I hope in time it works out. Please dont take it all on you. Being a Community Guide has an extra sense of responsibility attached to it, but YOU'VE GOT THAT. It should not mean total perfection. We all need to be allowed an "oops" here and there.
โ27-06-2018 01:43 PM
โ27-06-2018 01:43 PM
โ27-06-2018 01:48 PM
โ27-06-2018 01:48 PM
I should have deleted that post but I appreciate all your support. I just want Zoe7 to have that support now when she needs it too.
โ27-06-2018 01:55 PM - edited โ27-06-2018 02:10 PM
โ27-06-2018 01:55 PM - edited โ27-06-2018 02:10 PM
@Sans911 theres enough support here to go around ๐
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