The Challenges of Mental Health Wellbeing

[Shaz51]

hello @Sans911, I read you other message , please stay my friend  , sending you lots of hugs

[Sans911]

Hopefully she will be back soon @Shaz51

but I've caused a great deal of distress to someone I care about. If my being here is too much for her to bear than I will leave if it requested. I'm always messing things up, and upsetting the apple cart. I should have acted much ch, much earlier but my communication skills suck when I'm hurting. Then I left it too late. Then I didn't discuss because I didn't want to discuss it front of the whole forum. So now I really hate myself for fking up yet again. These are times I wish I didn't survive.

[outlander]

@Sans911😞 💜

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[Shaz51]

she will be back @Sans911

[Former-Member]

There's a whole lot of hurt in your words there @Sans911. You're doing really well to connect with others for support. Sending you a check in email now. Take care 🌻

[Teej]

You are just human @Sans911. We all do things we regret. You’ve tried honestly and genuinely to make amends. I know it doesn’t feel like it when you are in it, I know I felt ill about Maz for months but I’m pretty sure you know you might act differently if it happened again for you. It’s so hard because a different reaction may have happened as well from the other person. We never know what will happen. In writing this post I’m aware that it sounds like I have lots of judgements about said incident but I honestly don’t. I very much see from both sides. I’m just trying to take emotion out of it. My therapist has pointed out that every time we come on the forum we take risks. We take risks that we’ll be hurt and we take risks that well hurt others and it’s so hard because the risks are public. It’s a heightened risk because we are all at the high end with sensitivities. 

Go gently on you as I hope she is going gently on her. You don’t know what is going on for her either. There may be other things at play. It’s so easy to write this stuff  to you when it’s not me at the centre of it. I think you’ve handled it the best way you could. I hope you can forgive yourself. Every interaction we have is just part of a learning curve. 

I’d miss you if you went into hiding too. 💜🤗

[Appleblossom]

@Sans911 I have grown very fond of you though I dont say it much.

I love your discrete move from the 911 avatar to your more peaceful umbrella at the end of the pier.  It says a lot about your strength and your journey.  You are reflective, very supportive and also humorous.  I hope in time it works out. Please dont take it all on you.  Being a Community Guide has an extra sense of responsibility attached to it, but YOU'VE GOT THAT.  It should not mean total perfection.  We all need to be allowed an "oops" here and there.

[Maggie]

@Sans911 

[Sans911]

I should have deleted that post but I appreciate all your support. I just want Zoe7 to have that support now when she needs it too.

[outlander]

 @Sans911 theres enough support here to go around 💜