Living with Ourselves

[TAB]

Im always around @Sophia1  had big sleep this afternoon. I tried tagging you a while back , it didn't work. 
Im going to hosp Friday morning for thyroid surgery.  So thats 3rd Will in Will trilogy. Mine. After fathers and aunts. Lol

[tonys]

@Sophia1  @maddison  this is the fastest ive ever had to knock up a kite . hope it flys.  thank you so much sophia and maddison for your words. they always come from a some where deep inside you and they always hit the spot.   yes i made a phone call today to the back packers specially to give 2 of the calfs a name.  one is sophia,  and the other is maddison,  the milk they will one day give will nourish my soul and think of all the beautifull pictures your words have filled my day dreams with.  different hotel tonight. The cleaning lady if there is one was kind enough to leave me a half bottle of gin under the bed.   Wipe the lipstick of ,    give it the sniff test ,.....yep ,  were good to go,  now nearing my last sip and penminship waning but you can be assured ,  first peaceful bomb creator i can find in this apocalyptic zoo, i will have give all my in box a thorough mauling for any missed letters and dig my deepest for a reply.  Now the pizza i bought tonight slipped out of the wet carton and landed face down on the pacement.  Its a credit to Dominoes that even after hoseing is of in the shower,  not one olive or anchovy came off.  that chesse they use must come from bunnings adhesives section.  Gin,.. pizza that tasts like a tyre that done 70000 kms on country roads, and a flickering temperamental t.v,  ... feeling like a king over here.   miss you all very much.  could be a bit before i post again ..   embrace each other and all life sends your way..  tonys  moon base one  

[Sophia1]

oh my goodness @Jacques 

What a superb effort!

I hope that you are supremely proud of yourself.

The bike literally sparkles.

I feel as though it needs to be retained in a large glass, viewing tank.

Preserved and protected as part of a collection in a gallery of art work; museum treasures of artefacts from the past.

Congratulations, seriously.

Your talents seem unlimited.

You definitely have a very high level of design and creativity along with intelligence.

Thank you so much for sharing.

I have a huge smile on my face for you

Hugs straight back

Take care

virtual mum number unknown laugh

Sophia1

[Sophia1]

Well @tonys 

You truly have a beautiful soul.

What a gift and such an honour.

I absolutely adore cows; always have.

I have been known to talk to many.

We lived next door to a farm; before where we are now. (My now forever home.)

The cows used to lay on our fence line as we had planted gum trees all around the edge of the property.

I would go out daily to speak to them addressing them by the numbers they wore as earrings.

As I spoke to them more would sneak up from behind to observe the strange being who was chattering away.

I loved the way they looked back deeply into my eyes.

In fact when I first started working a client told me that I had eyes like a cow. I composed myself until he left and then ran upstairs and cried.

I later told my parents and they explained that it was actually a compliment. I think it was more about the blank expression on his face; his tone of voice and the way he stared at me.

Did not put me off of cows though.

So every time I see cows now I will say hello Sophia and @maddison 

Tonys, the way you expressed your thanks and how you will at times be reminded of the warmth you felt is not something that can be bought.

You felt this Tonys because you are open to such inner beauty that can be found within our souls. You have this depth yourself.

I too feel deeply grateful and touched by another beautiful person I have met on these forums. That person is you.

The beauty lies also within our differences which of course comes from our life's struggles; challenges and perseverance as well a who we are as innocent children.

I shall stop now otherwise I will write a whole book.

Also this will disappear off to the neverneverland where my other yet to meet acquaintances have so much of my many words previously written; now gathering cosmic dust of some kind.

Be true to yourself; Be real and just be.

always be you

friendship

Sophia1

[Appleblossom]

 @Sophia1 Lovely to hear from you. Gentle soul.

I can feel the sadness and the need around setting boundaries.

Live in your own dignity.

It is beautiful reading your posts to others too.

My life ebbs and flows as the tides, and waxes and wanes as the moon.

Trauma triggers are rarely far away but I also have good things in place and music helps.

I have planned a weekend away tomorrow and then a week away in January.  I feel grateful I am in the position to do so.

Hello @Jacques @tonys @Dimity @Shaz51 

[maddison]

Hi @tonys Hi @Sophia1 

I'm not sure if we have spoken before @Sophia1 .. Hello 👋 

Your reply to tonys was so beautiful... Now I feel special that I was a part of it too!! Thankyou.

Reading about how the other cows would walk up to hear you talking - I could see it in my mind eyes - one of the loveliest movies I have ever watched💜

I agree with all the words you said to @tonys & I couldn't have said it better myself! @tonys you are wonderful soul...I treasure all your kites! Even if they few & far between, something tells me - you make time for what is important to you!!

I was laughing at your descriptions. Perhaps you could get a job at Domino's advertising? I might even consider buying their pizza if that's how they described it!!

I don't know if you are joking about naming the calf's? It's an honour. My calf will be shy & shock herself everyday with her strength & determination! 💜

I don't know what you are up to, away from the farm & in these hotels? It sounds like a strange adventure. I'm so glad, you took a moment to say hello. It's ok if you can't write for a while. Perhaps it will be easier for the birds to fly - I wonder how they navigate the wondrous kite's you send out?

I'm going to tag you in a previous letter I sent from a month or so ago. Might make it easier for you to find in your inbox. Please don't feel any need to to reply - I don't want you to miss it - is all. (I'm pre- empting? your imaginary reply already - it's very funny. Ok that's done.)

Hope you are ok in the big world.

If ever you should need us.....

Yes @Sophia1 ! New rule😊 cows are called Sophia & maddison. Thankyou again for including me, hope your day is ok. xx

[Jacques]

hi @Appleblossom my virtual mum 🙂 i hope things are going well for you, hugs.

[Sophia1]

@Dimity 

You  wrote:

I respect your stated need for boundaries and I'm very sorry if I've overstepped. You're lucky to have so many good and trusted friends on the forums, and I for one deeply appreciate the thought and care you've put into corresponding with each of us individually.

My very best wishes

Dimity

Hello @Dimity 

I was reading back over the last few pages. I often do this to remind myself of what I have written to people and whom I have written to.

I read your response again and have added a copy of your response above; as you possibly might have felt offended by my words around boundaries.

I cannot see what I might have said that might lead you to feel that way.

I do recognise that this is a downside of this type of communication.

The interpretation belongs to the individual reader.

I enjoy talking on a one to one, face to face basis. Facial expressions, tones of voice are a very strong part of communication.

I  am on the autism spectrum and have a few other labels that I choose not to think about as personally I find them unhelpful. This can influence my expressing myself on occasion.

This might further explain my style of writing.

You are certainly not the first person to be upset by something that I have written about; totally oblivious to me.

sigh

The content of that particular post was not directed at anyone on the forums.

I was referring to people in my real life. Sadly these are some family and extended family members.

I was and am still not in a good place. Enough said.

I am only mentioning this as a way of explaining why I might not have made sense.

I am not blaming you in any way.

I write over on this thread for that very reason as I feel it is my safe place. I hide over here.

I invite people over here as my way of connecting with them still.

I do not try to detract people from other threads either.

Friendships can be shared.

Please know that the few interractions that we have had on a couple of threads in the past were pleasant and I would not want to upset you in  any way.

I hope that this helps and does not make you feel worse

Take care

Sophia 1

[Sophia1]

Hello @Jacques 

I hope that I have not overwhelmed you with such a glowing account of your skills.

I am just in awe of how much you achieve.

Take care

Sophia1

[Sophia1]

Hello @maddison 

I wrote a great lengthy response to you  as is my style.

I will save it for another time as am feeling quite fragile at the moment.

I do not know you well enough and unsure how to write to you as I have already upset someone else without realising.

Lovely to meet you.

Our paths will meet again

Moo

Sophia1