Living with Ourselves

[Sophia1]

Hello @Jacques 

Lovely to hear from you in reply to my post to you.

It is hard when our loved ones have health issues.

Good that she is being monitored for everyone.

Take care of you also as I know that you still look after your mum and Aunt at times also.

Am off soon as you know

It will probably be a couple of months.

Probably won't be able to find anything when I return here.

I feel as though I don't belong anymore already.

I will be a silent observer for a while I think.

Test the waters.

Big hug

Sophia 1

[Jacques]

hi @Sophia1 so glad to hear from you too,

i know you have been needing time for self care. yes i know you are going on a holliday, you will always have a place here @Sophia1 you are often in my thoughts. never feel alone my friend, i will always respond when i get a chance. 

big hugs to you too. wishing you a safe and happy journey. 

Jacques

[Sophia1]

Hello @TAB 

I brought my reply to you over here as do not want to leave essays on brief catch up threads.

My style of writing.

Tis moi

This is my safe place. Might sound weird.   Again is what it is.  Tis moi.

So without further ado

Responding more from good morning

You have achieved so much.

I am so very pleased for you as you struggled since from when I first met you on here, with work and living arrangements. This does take it's toll.

Organising all of those work projects and home improvements is a credit to you.

I hope that you have the feeling of being at home...

your home 

sooner than later..

Hopefully you will have some friendly, reliable people within your new community.

Take care

Sophia1

ps If I have managed to totally confuse you; apologies.

Struggling explaining myself still.

Remnants of post concussion which mess with my language part of my brain have been exacerbated again with Covid.

Have been out of action for nearly 6 weeks.

Keep me uptodate with your new adventures in home...garden...community and where life takes you next.

Sophia1

[Sophia1]

Hello @Jacques 

Thank you for your warm; encouraging response that you wrote on 30th June to me. I have just read.

Here waiting for me on my return today.

I do feel rather like a fish in a fish bowl being back on here.

I am writing to those who have written to me and will also do more reading; researching and observing rather than throwing up my problems so to speak.

I would love to still continue our connection if you so wish.

I can't wait to hear about where you are at with that beautifully restored bike.

Write when you can and about what you want.

Bye for now

Please take care

Sophia

Big hug

[Sophia1]

Hello @tonys 

I can't find you anywhere.

That is no surprise really as I feel quite lost on here.

My first day back...

I wrote to Jacques that I feel somewhat like a fish in a fishbowl.

I hope that your rehabilitation is progressing and that you are feeling more of Tonys is back.

I found out that you had been in hospital just before I went  away.

I am not aware of what happened though.

I know that you were also preparing to train new managers of your farm.

You had a move at some time to the coast with your cousin and lovely friend Bookkeeper.

I do hope that life is being far kinder to you than it has been in the past.

I am fully aware of long term rehabilitation after surgery and the toll it takes on the whole body...... energy.....; mind.....; moods.....; tolerance.....; exasperation and so much more.

Determination and persistence will serve you well..... They were my help.

Let's not forget one of the best helpers of all times.......our sense of humour.....

I truly hope that life is rewarding you and you are where you want to be in life.

Do not feel the need to respond to my message to you......should you still be receiving notifications.

Come back to the forums in your time when and if you are ready to.

They will be rather overwhelming at first.

Hospital followed by rehabilitation etc etc is a cocoon of sorts and we are somewhat sheltered from the predicaments and needs of others...........This is vital for our own recovery.

I know Tonys will want to be helping all of his friends and leaving those beautiful trails of prose.......... in the special way that is Tonys

I am hoping that Bookkeeper is reading this epic piece and not yourself.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being there for Tonys..... Bookkeeper..... as I know that he was there for you without knowing any of your story.

Wherever your life takes you next.... you have left the sprinklings from moonbase within my heart Tonys.

ps

Hello cows....profuse apologies I cannot for the life of me remember your names.

Yes, yes

I am finishing now.

Sophia................who adopted one of your cows

big hugs to you and Bookkeeper

[Sophia1]

Dear @Jacques 

I have just read back my response to you and am now worried about how it might read.

Nothing has changed ....I constantly have to check if I have upset or offended someone.

I realise now at this stage of my life that I am very different as this happens to me all the time in real life.

We must not change who we are this I now know.

I am making an effort to make sure that I do not upset or offend those who are important to me.

You are one of those people.

observing rather than throwing up my problems so to speak

The above was in reference to myself only.

I am here to support you in any way that you need should you want to reach out.

I will be guided by your words to me.

You already support me and thank you

Sophia

[Oaktree]

G’day @Sophia1 

How nice it is to see you here. I have missed you exceedingly! I haven’t seen hide nor hair of @tonys for ages either. I do hope that he is recovering well.

How was your holiday? Did you enjoy yourself? Looking forward to a note from you.

your friend,

Meggle

[outlander]

nice to see you popping in @Sophia1

[Jacques]

hi @Sophia1 my beautiful friend, i am so happy to hear from you, please don't worry about upsetting me or offending me, i enjoy our chats.

not a lot going on here, i have been doing some odd jobs around the house and had to put the bike and motor bike on hold while i save up for a new kitchen, for the past 6 months i have got nearly half the new kitchen cabinets, im hoping to get the rest by christmas. 

im not sure what photos i have shown you but i took this one yesterday as i had to take the motorbike out for a pest inspection.

[Sophia1]

Hello @Jacques 

A lovely  reply.

I am all over the place getting over Covid and post concussion rearing it's ugly head. They are not friendly with mental health vulnerability I have discovered.

Yes beautiful friends can be hard to keep. I have been betrayed too many times and struggle to trust these days.

I never feel that with you Jacques.

Your vibes come through so strongly as sincere and  very caring.

Your bike I had seen a picture months ago when I mentioned about getting a glass enclosure to preserve it. I think that I read that you were not happy with the paintwork.

It looks like it sparkles even more now.

I seriously hope that you are very proud of yourself. You have to be. Incredible work.

Now after all the other restoring around the house you are renovating the kitchen.  I remember now that it was in your plans. You are halfway there. Well done.

You use your energy well following through with your goals as well as your love of bikes.

I imagine that your mum is very excited.

Please keep in touch even  if I am not on here too often.

I am still the fish swimming in circles in the fishbowl

big hugs

Sophia