Living with Ourselves

[tonys]

@Sophia1    Hi sophia hope you are well and making some progress with personal matters and your son.   This is just a quick pop in let you know im ok. well getting better.

You gave me an idea that I gave some thought to and was hoping to chat with you about when you have some time.  Sane have been in touch and I have to say they have been very supportive,  so although it was 10 steps back it was one step forward again and I'll take any progress I can get.   Now only come back when you have time,   I know you have a full boot and an empty tank,  so take good care.

Miss ya my friend.

[Sophia1]

Hello @tonys

I have to say that I am relieved to hear from you..

tonight I am drained. 
Tomorrow is a new day

Will log in tomorrow afternoon

Let me know approximate time that you can log in

I am here to help my friend

Without interference

[tonys]

@Sophia1   thankyou mate.   Yes I new you were tired.  Thats our connection.  I will stop for lunch about 2 but only if that suits you.  I trust you mate and the Lady that runs things assures me that they have an umbrella over me to stop incoming mortars.  They went to some effort,

So,  just need an alpha free oasis and we can do what we do best.   Help pull ourselves,  out of the bogs by escaping into the pages.  I hope you get some rest from your  worries and I will talk to you tomorrow

[tonys]

Hey there @Zoe7 .   You being a teacher I like to be on my best behaviour when I write you,

so soon as I can find my sunshine switch I promise I will write and I want to hear all your news, thanks for looking in and sorry I did not reply last night.

Take care Zoe.      tonys    mb  1 

[tonys]

@Thyme   Hope this finds you thyme.      I know you helped me.   Just  wanted to say thankyou very much.  Best I can manage for now but will make it up one day.  Please take care of yourself.

tonys mb  1 

[Sophia1]

Hello @tonys 

I checked in about an hour ago and could not see you.

Just wondering if you are about now.

I am not able to stay on here for too long.

Hoping that you are okay

Speak soon hopefully'

Sophia1

[tonys]

@Sophia1    I'm so sorry Sophia are you still there.   I had a little home work assignment I had to hand in to Tide is turning.   I cant remember what thread she is in.   It was another poem and I did send it to you,  because its about you,   so I really hope you received it,  don't want you to think I'm unreliable,    And i spelled a word wrong in it.   bath is meant to be bathe.   I wonder if the bosses can find a way to fix a spelling mistake in a sent poem.    I'll try begging,  then I'll try bribing.

so let me know please if you got my poem and you are still about.     tonys   mb  1

[wordman]

@tonys Hey tonys. Your style of writing is stagnate. Elaborate, expand, and create. I like what you say. A lot of wonderful lyrics have come from your posts. 

Kind Regards 

Wordman

[tonys]

stagnate. . . . That is an interesting word you chose.   @wordman    @Sophia1 

  To foul,,  stop flowing,  stand still,  lie dormant.     That would be a good critique  to  a person that was trying to write. 

To someone with a reservoir of trauma who heals himself by letting a bit of that water go from time to time.  . . I cant utilize it,   and full throttle on sane forums.  My black humour  imagination and  inkwell of blood,  Its constant hard work for me not to expand.   I come from a country torn by years of conflict  and have resisted the urge to flirt on the edges of that,  and I see that as good progress for me.

I do practice writing and believe me,  I do more than expand,   i explode..  but not on sane forums.   My friend sends those embellished meat packages elsewhere thank goodness.

  My attempts at true creative writing on a site where people go to with mental health problems.  have had the odd adverse reaction,    Unfortunately not all will self censor.   So I tag the few that have told me they like my 'self therapy'  writing.  and I have just  one that understands I too,  need to crack the tap a little,  and always she comes back  to me.

 thats all this is,   finding one person who will accept the odd dripping package. and taking one from them.

Its not writing.      When I feel I'm being shadowed,  then a poem of just enough smoke to get them of my tail.    but  thin enough to let those who get my condition  through. 

And therapeutic release,  well I don't have much say in those words that flow out. That is autism.

I don't think I put this very well,  sorry  mate bit linear today,  but its the best I can do.

Thanks for the tips on the crows band.     nice.

Take good care,    and remember   if you see something I pen.   and you don't like or get the first three words,    over the shoulder and in the bin.     With the very best intentions.

  tonys m b 1 

[tonys]

OH   @wordman  , I forgot to ask.   were you referring to the poems and letters  I wrote today in the. . . .Peer group chat  conquering our goals . . .    thread.

I think you may enjoy exploring there,  if you enjoy words  and I almost come close to actual  writing,  in that thread.  I have trouble expressing in the other threads.   

I would be    'very interested '    in your thoughts  owlunars reply to the poem,   and  the wonderful piece she wrote.   Excerpt from her sonnet.   

Please look after yourself  .   Kind thoughts                  tonys