Living with Ourselves

[Sophia1]

Hello @Jacques 

Thank you for natural recipe for aphids.

I had not thought of them ...

only blasted snails that I can see everywhere..

I am frightened to put stuff down  as my cat comes out in the garden with me...not on his own..

We have a very, very large possum in our very, very large tree..

BE I will refer to my cat as is very very aware of him and very very threatened as anyone can imagine..

Throw in or watch them fly in;;;listen to their various calling sounds of a whole array of birdlife...

he is grumpier than his normal grump look..

He usually stays on our decking...after investigating the area between the two sheds where former two pet cats rest...

Incredible how they know...

I am thinking of you today Jacques...I am supporting you in silence from afar..

I will have to find a new spot and new pot for my gardenia...

How is yours now...Happier with more water?

take care

Hello @Bill16 

happy house hunting if you are still looking..

can be challenging however once you find your home and you will know as soon as you walk inside you will feel settled..

Bye for now friends

Hugs for those that want them

sophia1

[Sophia1]

Hello my friend @tonys 

I cannot help you with the video and I use wooden spoons for cooking laugh..

I agree with your thoughts re once observed the essence is changed..as is the same with once discussed.. as is the same for everyone’s own personal experiences influencing at different levels….reactions ..thoughts..

I hope that you are not still stitching up more of your body parts!!

Reminds me of my husband.. He operates on himself also.. I imagine that you might also like him not even consider sterilising the needle either..

I have left the maze… just found new unchartered waters..

 Too many phone calls .. wasted words.. how do some of these people keep their jobs!

The submarine has been for many spins..full blast ahead.. creating gigantic waves.. surfers will be pleased.. 

Ihave been doing much research into psychiatric

diagnoses and different concepts..  have found a couple of people with similar thinking to me.. inspiring and propelling me forward in learning more.. helping me a great deal in handling current situation..

So although very tired .. my mind is delving even deeper

submarine suits me perfectly..

Gjven up decorating idea. Will spruce it up so that it passes inspection

I hope that you also are learning more.. speaking to new people and finding great support on the new website..finding help and opportunities..

Say hello to Swamp,the farm animals and birds; the bookkeeper and all of the workers

enjoy that cooking..

More pie crusts..

until next time

 Big hug. still gentle take care of those lungs

your friend 

Sophia1.

[tonys]

@Sophia1   hello friend.   not a word I get to use often,  It feels good.   I always say i hope things are getting better and better,   but  life to often,  is a stronger force than our wishes hey mate.    So we just live best we can.   You sent me a post a while ago about folks that are skilled at drawing us back in   It was like it came from a different you.    I read it and  read it and I will keep it so I never forget it.   The work you put into it was not wasted my friend.

Perceptions,   I used to trust ,  but the older I get the more I question interactions of minds,  ebs and flows of energy ,  am I  getting sustenance to now and then, or  is the land scape just a maze of dry wells and traps I do not comprehend.   Will the water so sweet,  just turn to poison again.

I think It is called learning.

 The more frail I get,  the less worn out old cards i have to play with

Do we ever fully get it before the old clock finally winds down. 

I think its called life

   I  wish I had the skills to get,  it.  So all I can do is play the hands god gave me.. . .

and read that letter again.

Thankyou so much for that and all of your  letters.   They mean more than you know.

The sub is yours

now mate,  heres  the keys .  You earned it

Bit unwell of late but i will crawl back if I have to just to get your letters,

You take good care now sophia         tonys moon base one.

[Zoe7]

Hey @tonys I am not much of a movie watcher but do love ABC and SBS. I will often record something for later or access iview or on demand when there is no sport on I want to watch. 

I am not much into figure skating but was hooked on Torvill and Dean when they skated - so beautiful, so graceful and a level above everyone else.

Been into work today for a couple of hours. I took Toby so it took longer than it should have. He decided to explore every part of the school whilst I followed along (read that as chased him everywhere because he never comes when I call him lol). We have pademelons that visit at night so he was very interested in their scent and sniffing everywhere. He is now sound asleep as he wore himself out lol. I have to go back tomorrow but I will leave Toby at home so I can actually get some work done hahaha.

Now to do some more work so it is all ready for tomorrow and the start of the new year for the kids. We will have some time on Monday and Tuesday to get our classrooms ready but if I can have most of it done before then, then I will be more relaxed next week.

I hope you are doing okay and still finding those bits of light in your day 😁

@Sophia1 Clover is still loving her 'new' room - spends most of her time inside in there so it was the right decision ...still hard missing Cat but I am grateful to have both Toby and Clover.

[Sophia1]

I am trying to reply to you @tonys 

I keep on being sidetracked by life!

Watch this page....................

[tonys]

hey there Zoe  @Zoe7 ..   thankyou for staying in touch.  Your letter takes me back to a time when life was a little simpler.  I'm guessing that toby is your faithful pooch.    Mine dog is   swamp thing.   Paddy melons hey ,  now I'm thinking my first vision was even closer.  Dont tell me.  I got a little happy picture in my head of a country school ,  the sound of children's laughter,  and the watchful eye of a motherly teacher fusing about the perimeter of innocence and unbridled chaos.   I'll hang that happy painting in my mind...  You can trust kids. . . .  and then they grow up and the world  gets its nefarious  hands on our souls.  The values you give them now,

So  important.  Teachers ,   the custodians of the innocent.

What sport do you watch,  and I bet you play.  I do wish I had your energy.  Struggling badly cant sleep lately and i can usualy sleep anywhere ,any  time,  but some luck came my way today    I had my first NDIS workers here today.  Fixed em some iced tea and we just talked.   I needed to unload badly.  lawn got done , they sorted my room and fridge, sorted my boxes of old pills,  and they even recon they are going to get me out,  social dancing. and a heap of other excursions and things,  God must have sent them today,  no other explanation.  

I do have a huge and important favour to ask of you.   I have been trying to send,   and get them to confirm that they have recieved a very important letter to team@saneforums.org.

Can you please ask, do they have another email address that I can send to and recieve confirmation notice, even if its a automated response.  that  they are receiving.  This is important.  I know you are busy,  but my skills and limitations are hindering my efforts.   Some correspondence did get through,  but for some reason  I cant send to this anymore.

Thankyou so much @Zoe7 ,   

I do hope you have the most wonderful first day with all those glowing faces

heart felt wishes and thanks   tonys   moon base 1

[tonys]

Hello my friend   @Sophia1   dont worry.   I'm having what could loosely be described as a staff  

meeting and then I think I will try and slip into a much needed comma for a while..

Don't try and reply now ,  thats an order sailor.   Find a quiet spot with vista,  a tall frosty glass of something you've never had before,  watch  those beads of dew as they make their way down the glass and think of nothing. . .   absolutely  nothing...

We will have a little get together soon as we are both feeling a normal pulse again. . .

Take care Sophia

Tonys . . .       moonbase 1  

[Sophia1]

Hello my friend @tonys 

yes that term friend would have different meanings for all of us..

I think that what you might be sensing is what friendship means to me and that is sincerity along with above all else honesty....

That kind of friendship carries warmth....

haha a tall frosty glass of something nice sounds very dangerous for me..

the a..l...c affects me so quickly.....

I can indulge in a nice glass of vino with my meal occasionally..

I have been scouring the pages which takes forever to read each post and go back page by page..

I wanted to read again the words that you are alluding to...

I have finally found them and then read your next letter laugh..

I will write to you later...

so please please please do not feel the need to respond to this letter...

there will be another one later..

Enjoy that place where you go to rest...

Sophia1

submarine berthed....

unsure where ...

[Sophia1]

Hello @Zoe7 

I feel as though I am getting to meet and know a bit about Clover and Toby..

This is something new for me to experience on the forums.....

I love animals as you know..

I can imagine Clover feeling quite territorial and possibly a few inches taller with her very own space..

Toby keeping an eye on her at the same time letting her be....probably secretly liking her in there so that he has his own freedom...

Do you have a photograph of Cat in there...

might sound silly as obviously Toby and Clover cannot look at the photograph and relate..

I wondered if it might help you...

A way of something special ....an inside the home sharing of Cat's room with her fur family...

the three together...a new beginning...

might sound ridiculous to you...just where my mind took me..

My fur cat who has fur flying everywhere at the moment as has a double coat and looks almost shaggy...I am now referring to as BE....

BE is becoming more clingy and is quite used to be inside and outside with one or both of us..

He has been spoilt by being taken with us on our last two holidays....One last year....a beach escape not that far away and before that a houseboat...can't remember what year that was..

seems like forever ago..

well I am weary..

Take care

and I look forward to the next sequel of "a day in the life of Cat and Toby..Cat always remembered.."

Sophia1

We all approach

[Zoe7]

Not a country school @tonys but very close to the bush and surrounded by natural beauty - it is such a lovely place to work. I tell my kids that the two most important things in our class are they are happy and honest ...everything else comes secondary.

Yes Tobes is a puppy dog. He is my little shadow and I miss him a lot when I am at work. Last year one of my kids liked to pretend he was Toby ...he even called himself Toby (and so did the other kids lol). He would sit by my side or at my feet and I would give him pats ...it really was adorable. Another child pretended she was Clover (my cat) so I would often have them both at my feet ...I had the most beautiful class - they were all so different and very eclectic but together they worked so well together. I am certainly going to miss some of those kids this year but I bet they will visit often (which I will love).

I watch a whole range of sport - AFL, NRL, soccer, tennis, cricket, basketball. I don't currently play any sport myself as I injured my neck years ago and had to give it all up. I have played basketball, softball, badminton, tennis, netball, volleyball, touch football, indoor cricket and soccer and a handful of footy games (when women could only play in one-off or exhibition matches). If I had been a boy I would have played AFL. Basically, anything with a ball I was into! 

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