Just checking in.

[Teej]

Night @CheerBear ✨🌙

[Faith-and-Hope]

Night @CheerBear ..... 😘💕💤

[TheVorticon]

I'm feeling upset and don't think I can talk about why , and I don't want to deal with it

[Faith-and-Hope]

Morning @TheVorticon .....

Maybe writing that here is a good start.

Those feelings are sucky, but you just owned them instead of pretending they weren’t there, and I think that is a good thing, even if it doesn’t fix things.

I hope it’s something that can work itself out ....

Hugs.

[CheerBear]

Hi @TheVorticon.

I'm with @Faith-and-Hope in thinking that it's a good start there. It's real and it's OK to not be able to talk about why if you can't or don't want to. I can become pretty frustrated at myself when I'm feeling upset but can't get out why, though. Not sure if you experience that too also, but something tells me you may. Something I've had a go at before when I've felt like that, is talking about why I can't talk about it (it's a round-about way or step to getting there for me maybe). Wonder if that could help you too?

Hoping today has something good in it for you.

[Faith-and-Hope]

👋 @CheerBear ......

[CheerBear]

👋 @Faith-and-Hope

Guess what? (Posting here because I am here at the moment).

I just finished a call from the break place. I have an assessment on Friday for admission Monday (If I get through the assessment which I should). The clinician who called and is doing the assessment is one I worked really well with last year who remembered me, which makes it seem lots less scary too. It's perfect. Any longer and I would have gone completely bananas and my stay would have carried in to school holidays, which would not be ideal. I feel really shaky and fast inside right now and it feels like giant fear (annoying broken danger radar) but I don't think it is fear. It'll pass. It always does. This is not terrible. It's great.

It's way more notice than I expected which is great and it gives my person, the kids and me time to get ready. Despite my insides telling me I need to run and hurry and pack and organise everything right now, I don't think I have to.

@Teej @Mazarita @Maggie too (hope it's OK to tag you also!).

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hahaha @CheerBear ..... that’s great 🎉

There is so much in that post that I love about you .....

Hugs ❣️

Having lived a married life with people who seem to operate with a big stick chasing them from behind, something I tell myself when I start to become anxious about a timeframe is this .....

”Relax .... there is time for this ..... there is time ..... take the time it needs and don’t panic, don’t rush.  It will be okay.”

I hindsight I can see that this is what I voiced aloud to my little dragons while they were growing up ..... around school days and times, when  it became, “There is time to get everything done, unless you don’t start ..... unless you do nothing until the last friggin’ second ..... then it’s a mad rush where you have to get dressed and eat breakfast in the car, and I turn into a screeching parrot ....”

Lol .....

There is time.

💜

[Teej]

Hi @CheerBear, just woke up to this news......and I would have snotted you if you didn’t tag me 😘. It’s fantastic news. Only a few more days of essay writing then 😆. 

Its so good that you have had supportive people through this process. I know the break will help you so much. 

Maybe this will help with annoying broken danger radar although I do understand it’s not possible to lose that yet, it’s still needed I assume. 

This is awesome news. Yep cartwheel time

my mood is pretty good can you tell, 10 hours sleep......with med help but needed sometimes. 

[CheerBear]

Haha @Faith-and-Hope I love that 😁 Thank you. And you also @Teej lol! Love the cartwheels and your 10 hours sleep! I can't wait to have some proper sleep, with the help of meds I can take while I'm there.

I'm going to read and re-read those words of yours F&H (in a calm mum, not screeching parrot voice) while I sit here with the whole world feeling like it's spinning, trying not to be sick, and fighting against doing a whole lot of unnecessary panic things like polishing my shoes and washing the curtains (again) 😆❤

Breathing. Got this. Just a few more days/essays to go!