sad&stuck

[STORMGRL101]

Hi @NikNik

yes I like spending time with my little nephew. So sweet and innocent. 

If I left now he wouldn't remember me.

i feel so guilty.

i am a bad person

[Faith-and-Hope]

You're not a bad person @STORMGRL101

Your circumstances are not good.

[STORMGRL101]

This week I start a new type of therapy every wed&fri for the next 2 months. Feeling anxious about it and what will come up. Still struggling to get through each day. I have PRN medication to take when it all becomes too much. Although now I am a constant drowsy zombie, its still better then what I have been feeling. Still feeling so guilty, I love my partner and my family so much, I just hate that in the end I feel like I am going to ultimately hurt them so much.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hearing you @STORMGRL101 ..... Hang in there and keep swimming ..... ❣

Sending hugs your way for how you are feeling ..... there are others here riding big waves.

You're not alone.

💐🐬❣

[STORMGRL101]

I started Electrical field stimulation therapy today for the next 10 or so weeks. After this it is likely I will move on to do neurofeedback therapy. My support team are hopeful this will help me. This is why my psychiatrist didn't want to change my medication when I had a breakdown and went to hospital the other week.I am feeling tired as the psychologist said I probably would. I'm going to force myself to go food shopping instead of hopping into bed. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @STORMGRL101 ..... that's great .... 😊

How are you feeling now ?

[STORMGRL101]

Hi @Faith-and-Hope
I was super tired during the afternoon but then as evening hit I started to become overwhelmed with my negative feelings. I took some medication to help and lay on the couch to watch some shows. Now I am trying to find some motivation to cook dinner so my partner can eat when he gets home from work tonight.I feel frustrated that I have to rely on some medication to try and get my mind to calm down. I wish there was something other than medications & distraction techniques to help get my life on track. If this is what its going to be like for the next 5 or so years I do not want to be a part of it anymore.

[Faith-and-Hope]

It's likely to be progressive across a spectrum @STORMGRL101 ..., all the little things can add up to make life uncomfortable, but in the same way, lots of little things can add up to make life more comfortable too ..... try to keep adding to the more comfortable side of things ..... along with medications and distractions, self-care goes a long way too.

💐💕

[STORMGRL101]

Thankyou @Faith-and-Hope 

Self care... hmmm.. something I need to work on.

[Former-Member]

Hugz @STORMGRL101 💜💕