rough time

[outlander]

@Former-Member 💖

Dont be sorry @Sans911 you were with me ❤
@Mazarita 💗

[outlander]

Its only 930 and its started already 😣

My goals for today are:

-to keep hydrated

-to make sure i eat something

-use my coping methods to control emotions, anxiety in particular 

-use coping methods to manage the flashbacks and dissociation 

-try to do at least one self care activity  (not while pops demanding or sister  needs caring for or work) 

[Former-Member]

Good Morning @outlander

Your list of goals sounds like a good way to help manage your day.

Any particular ideas on what your self care activity will be?

Take care 🙂

[outlander]

Uh im not sure @Former-Member
Ive still got little one atm but just watching movies and keeping her occupied.

Im just writing up a for sale add for my car. I need something more horse friendly so time to sell and upgrade.

[Sans911]

Morning lil Sis @outlander

Good to see you set some small goals today.

I'm just going out to get my meds and see my case manager. I'll be back in a while if you want to talk or watch bbt.

[outlander]

That would be good thanks @Sans911

[outlander]

Ive been keeping with my goals so far today but its getting really hard and im not managing so well now...

[Sans911]

I'm here lil Sis. Tell me what's going on?

@outlander

[Owlunar]

Another anniversary @outlander - I understand - they are hard days

I can promise you that things will change - and you do a lot more than just mope and hope - you are do proactive on you own behalf I know things will get better and all of this will look worth it as unpleasant as it is right now

Back in the 80s my psychiatrist told me things would change - I had worked so hard to make things better and it wasn't working - I felt really despondent and the dark days ahead were actually the end of the way things were because the changes started and change can be really hard to but in what was a really tough struggle with lots more changes following the sun came out and life was different

And I could not tell you how that happened but it did - and I believe someone who battles as hard as you do will find the sun coming out like that too - which doesn't mean things won't be ups-n-downsie at times - but it will be better. Just going through the process of trying to change or making small changes does help

Thinking of you lots Oulander

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