Living with PTSD (Potentially Triggering Material)

[Shaz51]

@Former-Member  are you ok my darling 

sorry i don`t say too much as I was emotionally and mentally abused by my dad

but i am here for you now xoxo

@Faith-and-Hope, @eth , @Zoe7 , @CheerBear 

soo tired and aching soo much tonight , sorry xxxx

[Former-Member]

I know @Shaz51 .. and its okay, you dont need to be here for me. 🌺 

Its not all about abuse right now ... there are other things. Lots of other things. 😔

[Snowie]

@Former-Member sending much love and support right now. I hope things ease for you soon and read how hard you are doing it. Much love and hugs hun 💌💌

[Shaz51]

sending you love and hugs my sister @Former-Member 

[Former-Member]

@Shaz51 @Snowie @Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope 

@eth @outlander  @CheerBear  and anyone else reading along.

Oops .. You asked me to tag you @Former-Member  😀

Thank you all. 💕

There are lots of things, not even sure where to start.

But really .. I cant talk about so much of it. Ive already been warned Im too 'graphic'. 😯  Sh*t .. if you were in my head sometimes, you might understand what graphic really is!

There are huge emotions and feelings involved, and they are dragging me under. I honestly see no reason to keep trying every day. Life is just one long series of failures and disappointments. I have no purpose in life. I have no value. I have no goals. I literally have no life. Least ways, not one thats worth living.

I feel fragile, vulnerable, afraid of my thought processes ... and my inability to push them out of my head.

In answer to your earlier question ... No, Im not okay. 

Sherry

[Zoe7]

I certainly cannot comment on other aspects of your life @Former-Member but you are by no means a disappointment or failure here. You are loved and very much appreciated. I am not sure what else I can say Hon because it is you that needs to feel that and I know how incredibly hard that is when life is so dark. So all I have is love, care and support for you 

[BlueBay]

Hugs and love @Former-Member ❤️🤗

I hear you 

[Owlunar]

Aw @Former-Member 

You are very valuable and precious to me  - I care about you a lot 

I was born during WW2 and I had very few new toys  - not because my parents were mingy  - toys were in short supply then 

So maybe I learned a valuable lesson then  - my battered hand-me-downs were loved and special  - they were often hand-made and pre-war treasures.

You may feel you have little to offer my dear friend  - and seem to have no future to look forward to but you are loved. We love you here

Dec💜💚💙💗

[Shaz51]

love and hugs @Former-Member 

[Former-Member]

I am very sorry you are struggling (big understatement) I can understand how it feels with almost everything you are feeling right now and how black that darkness can get. You replied to me on another thread feeling worthless and I never got back to you, sorry. As @Zoe7 said, I cannot comment on your life outside the forum, but here you have value, your are not worthless and your support. silent or not means a lot to a lot of us. Your words of support and advice have always struck a chord with me and are always thoughtful and kind. 

Hang in there my friend. @Former-Member 💜