Am Not Coping

[Faith-and-Hope]

Nine years and counting @Bunniekins .... but that is the nature of this mi ..... insight is not in the building yet ..... sigh .... might be a health crisis that gets us there first.  At least the kids are now receiving appropriate care and battling their way back.

We will get there.  It just sucks .... a lot .... but just gotta keep swimmin’ ..... 🐬

[Bunniekins]

@Faith-and-Hope You are a good woman Faith-and-Hope :).

[Faith-and-Hope]

I try @Bunniekins .....

My tanty was impressive yesterday .....

[Bunniekins]

@Faith-and-Hope 9 years that is a long time!!!  and you have been there all that time .... not many would. My husband didnt . We are talking now and I wouldnt want to be married to him any more but at the time he had an affair and left me so yes you are an incredible woman.

[Bunniekins]

@Faith-and-Hope good to know that you have tanties like the rest of us 🙂

[Faith-and-Hope]

Underneath this bl%dy mi he is a very good man @Bunniekins ..... he is just lost in it and can’t see what is happening yet.  The one damaging his physical health is an eating disorder, but nowhere near “standard” so even more hidden than a so-called standard one.  He never does anything by halves ..... but driving the ed appears to be a familial personality disorder, also in the bl%dy hard to both identify and reach basket .....

The good news is that the effects on the rest of us have reduced dramatically now that two of the three the kids still at home have been diagnosed with associated disorders, and they have come under mh doctors, and mr’s behaviour (all our behaviour) come under the microscope .... 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Need a good tanty occasionally to blow off steam, I say @Bunniekins ..... 😏

[Bunniekins]

@Faith-and-Hope When I was really manic I was totally ed and in trouble. Funny (strange not haha) how it all ties into one another and your children too (I can relate to that) ..... I am so glad that your family are properly being looked after at long last.

[Bunniekins]

@Faith-and-Hope Apparently (I cannot remember this mind) I had a tanty at my ex about his gf when I was manic and totally smashed the landline phone so my son2 tells me ... *sigh* the things I did that I cannot remember.

[Faith-and-Hope]

We are being cushioned now @Bunniekins, but the real recovery cant begin until mr’s illness surfaces.  There is still too much that is impacting subtley all over us, so it’s managable in a treading-water sort of way.