Am Not Coping

[Snowie]

Morning @Zoe7, hoping last night ws okish for you 

@Faith-and-Hopegood morning, hope today is a bit quieter for you. 

[Zoe7]

I had a really up and down night @Snowie - started feeling unwell again about 8pm last night so tried to sleep. Up a couple of times with nightmares and pain but doing ok so far this morning - mainly just tired. I did resist taking extra meds so that is a bonus 

How was your night - did you have any sleep?

@Faith-and-Hope morning Hon - hope today is an easy one for you despite having to pack again 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Good morning @Zoe7 @Snowie ......

Well, I sat down on Chair Island with my iPad 8 hours ago .... Liked a bunch of notifications, answered one, then woke up four hours later and crawled off to Bed Island ..... 

I am sorry you had an up and down night @Zoe7.  Thanks for the well-wishes for the packing.  I will stay clear of Chair Island and wander in and out of forum as I pack .....

Expecting D1 before work this morning fo coffee, and S1 dropped his brother home last night, letting Wolfie out of his yard for me, so I didn’t have to manage the rocket-dog either.

I hope you both have a restful day.

💚🦋💜❄️💕

[Zoe7]

I can see that today won't be too restful for you @Faith-and-Hope but I hope you find moments where you can relax a little 

I am doing ok so far this morning - no it wasn't a great night but doing better now than I was even an hour ago - I'm taking that as a huge win 

My only plan for today is to get to the chemist for my weekly meds and maybe sort out another box in the spare room - if I can manage both of those two things then I will have accomplished something today!

Enjoy your coffee with D1 Hon (that rhymes lol) 

[Faith-and-Hope]

🤗💕 .... will get to relax in the plane @Zoe7 ......

Good for you ..... two goals for today ❣️

[Zoe7]

We will be back in the same time zone together again soon @Faith-and-Hope 

I am heading out to the chemist - will check back in with you when I return - won't be long! 

[Former-Member]

Lovely to see hear you chatting friendly & caring, like family we are here sometimes listening in, talking, leaving the room, jobs to do, time out, back again. Thanks for being here.
@Zoe7, something's changed for you, for the good, do you think so? I'm not sure what it is but all my little heart butterflies are dancing for you. What ever your doing - keep going ❤❤❤

@Faith-and-Hope, youve been quiet, busy there. Guessing youre coming east today. Have a good flight. You amaze me. Hope youve found a good friend or two there. Thanks for the 'likes'along the way here, and meaningful replies, appreciate it.

Also ANYONE, i'm saving up for a iPAD or TABLET - which do think is better? Any tips?

[Zoe7]

Hi @Former-Member The biggest change for me is defintiely I am getting more sleep. The nights are not nearly as bad as they used to be - I still have those times of fear and anxiety but there has been no further 'contact' (or hang-ups) for several weeks so I am more settled now than I was. It is always still in the back of my mind but not consuming me every minute of every day - let's hope that continues.

I am still having nightmares more nights than not but the flashbacks when I try to sleep have lessened. I definitely am much more negative when I am tired and haven't slept but am averaging 5-6 hours a night on most nights and that is helping me to feel more settled during the day. I know there is still a long way to go - I still think about ending all this when I am very low - but there is a difference between feeling that low and just really flat - knowing the difference and trying to work through those times is still difficult.

[Former-Member]

Its natural to want to escape great pain. Trouble is we forget emotional distreas is great pain. Why some of us default to SI is unknown except maybe we have learned at an early age that theres no other way out, even when there is.
You take care xox

[Zoe7]

A lifetime of feeling there is no way out, being continuously knocked down, just 'getting by' or repeated trauma all lead to one feeling like there is no point @Former-Member - feeling a bit that way this afternoon  I'll get through it - just one of those afternoons!