Am Not Coping

[Zoe7]

No @Faith-and-Hope just fluffier and in need of a clip and a bath  His mummy has been neglecting him (and on his birthday too ) The great thing about him being a puppy dog is that  everyday would seem like his birthday as long as he is fed and gets hugs 

Nearly pumpkin hour Hon - you ready for bed island?

[Faith-and-Hope]

Yes @Zoe7 .... starting to nod off .....

S2 has been explaining one of his online games to me.  D3 is out with S1 and DIL tonight.

[Zoe7]

haha @Faith-and-Hope do you feel like your head is about to explode with S2's explanation - I would with computer games - not my thing at all  

Nice for D3 to be out and about a bit - and nice for you to spend time with S2 

I'll be up most of the night I think - haven't taken my meds tonight because I was too concerned about how I've been feeling - so going to have to try and ride this one out for now 

I'll say goodnight to you now as you may face plant any time - so - Goodnight Hon 

[Faith-and-Hope]

🤗 @Zoe7 .... actually it’s a very artistic game .... and has a scientific basis .... so I am being quite enlightened ..... lol ....

Artistic genes are strong amongst us ..... ❣️

And yes, very good for D3 to be out socialising amongst her age group ..... and spending time with big bro..... 

And goodnight .... in case I fall asleep on you .....

[Zoe7]

That actually sounds ike something I could get into as well @Faith-and-Hope If you are able to share the name of the game here sometime I'd look into it 

Yes...really great for D3 to be both socialising and spending time with her big bro  I hope she is having a great time.... bet she won't be up early in the morning then!!!!!

At this stage @Faith-and-Hope I don't think I will be on here for a while after tonight. There is just too much pain and sadness around and I am not dealing with it at all well. We both know I don't deal well with others' 'suffering' when I am not doing too well myself - it seems to add to my own pain ten-fold (if that is at all possible ) I will try to at least check in with you occasionally - but don't 'look' for me Hon as I don't want you to be another person I let down here. Please hold those moments of joy you find in each day close and know that you will be always in my thoughts.

You are one in a million Hon and I treasure every moment now that you are in my life....

Love and hugs always.... 

[Sans911]

@Zoe7 😔you will be very missed, but I understand. Please try to come back from time to time. And I will send you a wish for better times to come for you.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Legends of Zelda @Zoe7 ....

Are you talking about the threads you frequent @Zoe7, or are you picking up painful things on other threads around the forums too ?

[Owlunar]

Hi @Zoe7

Reading some posts when we are battling can be overpowering and exhausting - I understand this and withdraw from time to time

So taken the time you need - you have been struggling for a long time and your own stuff is more than enough

Lots of very gentle hugs Zoe

Dec

[Zoe7]

Both @Faith-and-Hope - not this one atm but it has happened several times here too. Have needed to stop notifications from another thread I have kept up-to-date with as I can no longer 'see' what is happening - it is too painful and so very sad - and a little hurtful to be honest.

I have 'picked up' on some other threads over the last couple of days and I think that has really highlighted for me that it really is not a safe place here for me anymore. I am very likey to say something that will hurt someone (or a few people) if I stay and speak my mind here Hon - and that is the last thing I would want to do - so instead of saying exactly how I feel it is best I simply step away.

[Zoe7]

@Owlunar it is more than just reading 'stuff' - there is a 'culture' developing in parts here that I don't believe is a safe environment to be part of. This has been coming for some time now and it is my problem to deal with. As I said to F&H - the last thing I would want to do is to hurt anyone here but that also means that by not saying what I want to say I am keeping that painand hurt to myself - and I don't have anything AT ALL left to deal with any more pain. I honestly cannot see any other way. I know this forum has been my 'life-line' (literally) on many occasions but - right now - with things that have happened here - and continue to 'play out' for some members - I can't take any more. This does leave me in 'the middle of nowhere' but that is somethng I need to resolve (or not) myself.