A long rave

[Former-Member]

@saturnzoon 

Sounds exhausting! Glad ive only got one kid.

U cant get away when the stress is inside ur own home too.

Really hope tomorrow is easier for u

[Shaz51]

souds like you want to stay in tonight my @Former-Member which is ok

and tomorrow you see a play tomorrow arvo. The local ameteur theatre & musicals here r well supported by the locals.-- which I think will be great xx

beach sounds good and a good book sounds like a good plan my friend

will tag you to friday feast after which is always fun to get to know more members

[Zoe7]

Hope you enjoy your weekend too @Former-Member 

Hi @Mazarita @Meowmy @Angels333 @Shaz51 

[Former-Member]

@Shaz51 

Yeah decided to order a pickup pizza & stay in. Was out last night

Yeah link me up

[Shaz51]

sounds yumm @Former-Member , what kind of pizza xx

[Angels333]

Hey @Zoe7  sounds like you're super busy preparing for the Art Expo.   Your birdhouses sound fantastic.

So glad to hear Cat is better and getting her BBQchicken.

How are you feeling about your PD appointment on Tuesday?

I have a few withdrawal symptoms as I reduce my medication  increased anxiety etc but it's to be expected. 

I've got youth group tonight where we are taking shirt sizes for a tie dye night I'm running next term. 

[Zoe7]

That sounds like a lot of fun @Angels333 Good on you for organising it Hon 

Tapering off meds until you can start a new one is hard - done that a few times over the years. The last change we did instantly though as the meds I was on were making me worse so pdoc stopped it straight away and started the new one. There was no known interactions between the two so that made it do-able. 

The PD on Tuesday is something I wanted to do. I have done Youth Mental Health First Aid and a few other seminars over the last couple of years. MH in younger people - especially in schools - is growing in awareness but there is still a lack of knowledge and understanding among the teaching profession ...and it is a particular interest of mine as I see we need to know the 'whole child' in order to be able to adequately plan for learning and social/emotional development.

[Former-Member]

@Shaz51 

Supreme

I bought reinventing your life by jeffrey e young.

Founder i think of the schema therapy.

Apparently most people have a few schemas.

Ive only read a little bit & feel like i have all the schemas. Haha

So i think ill need the beach for such a heavy read.

I still find it fascinating tho that u can b a total crying & angry mess but after taking a pill be totally normal

They must have really improved medication over the yrs.

I still get a bit frustrated with this meditation centre tho. Its full of people that make out theyve had really hard lives & then go into all these natural therapies like colour reiki meditation with this idea theyre going to cure everyone. Funny thing is most of them feel quite insecure around me cause they know that ive lived in many places & theyve hardly lived in more than one place. 

I mean it was because of these type people yrs ago that i went off meds & finished up in hosp.

They just dont think before they speak

Last night when i was there i shared an experience. I went to a meditation night yrs ago. I actually had a bad spirit enter me. I couldnt move speak or do anything til this lady recognised it & somehow got it out of me. True story! I was so scared broke into tears once it was released.

I asked them if that had happened to them & they just were really uncomfortable. Its a straight question & i just wanted a straight answer. Yes or no but they couldnt answer that. Instead they had to say theyve seen lots. I wasnt asking if theyd seen anything. I really confronted them i guess. 

Think theyre just a bit too young & inexperienced for me.

I heard about & was involved in all this reiki meditation etc yrs ago but they talk to me like its all new to me cause im some dumb old woman. Haha ive been around more than all of them

They just bug me with their attitude of im going to fix u . like im some totally messed up person. When im just the victim of others very bad behaviour.

I really have to bite my tongue sometimes when i go there. I just go for the meditation & a bit of a yarn & laugh.

From my experience those that spend all their time trying to FIX someone else really have no direction in their own life.

My father said to me yrs ago there was this relationship counselor & one day her marriage broke & then she broke. 

I was a nurse yrs ago. Its easier to focus on helping someone else but much growth happens when u just focus on your own direction. I quit nursing at a point in my life where id hit rock bottom cause no1 had ever cared about me & i simply couldnt care about anyone else. It actually hurt me to do so

[Shaz51]

@Former-Membersending you tender hugs my friend

thank you for sharing your story xx

years ago I had epslisey where I could see myself laying down sleeping while watching me doing daily things -- felt like i was watching someone else`s life , felt like i was asleep for 3 years before waking up

[Former-Member]

@Shaz51 

Thats a freaky experience one im glad ive missed. Only viewed it & assisted people going thru it. Its frightening enough to watch

Certainly a time warp that one

What bugs me is their attitude its all in ur head. The owner is constantly saying her mother was diagnosed with cancer & just decided that her daughter was getting married & having a kid & it went away.

Its like saying everyone that died from cancer isnt trying hard enough.

They have this same attitude about mental illness too.  They got a real shock when they saw me with tremors from dr giving 2 drugs & how i was off meds. Werent they quick to then say oh medication is just as important.

Sorry but it gets to me sometimes the tactless things they say cause one day someone is likely to take one too many pills from hearing their comments. I would have yrs ago.

Theyve clearly never been that low. Watching & helping others is one thing but actually experiencing things is another thing.