A long rave

[Former-Member]

@Shaz51 

Throughout my shift we had to sleep on blowup matresses

Boy was it good when i bought a real bed. 

Nothing like switching off from the world in ur bed

Enjoy it

Tomorrow is another totally different day

[cutiepiekitty]

Hope you feel better @greenpea . Been a bit cool over here.

I didn't get much of anything done today after not much sleep for 2 nights. Went to a friend for coffee this afternoon. Hope I can get sleep tonight.  Only had 2-3 hrs each last 2 after seeing B and going bad places. Started going through things too much. When no sleep the brain does not go too well and the body hurts too with the arthritis. Had some panic attacks too. Been writing lots in my book to try and get the brain to stop and clear but that is only helping while I do it then it keeps spinning. And I don't like the bad things going around my head. B said that I definitely have CPTSD and am going to need a lot to get through. I already knew I needed lots of help though.

[saturnzoon]

My son2 has really pushed my buttons tonight, with playing to rough with my youngest all I can hear is my youngest telling him no and to stop as he's hurting him, cause my older son took my youngest chocolates that he had left, then I started shouting at them both to stop, but youngest can't once he's revved up he can't stop for a long time, I tried to get in between but youngest picked up the broom to hit older one, but he put it back down, so I turned my tv all the way up so I couldn't hear them. Youngest said he's not going to school tomorrow now as older one ripped my youngest poster he just brough home from school, had to take meds to calm down, it has stopped now but I'm so angry and just want to lash out.

[Angels333]

Hey sweet pea @greenpea I've been feeling quite mentally unwell lately .

I actually didn't mind the warmer weather. 

My psychiatrist is going to change my medication to see if that makes any difference. 

[Angels333]

@saturnzoon How are things this morning?   Your situation sounds very tough, I really don't have any experience with this.  But I do have a friend who is a counselor who had 3 boys and she used to do exactly what you did and shut the door on the fighting and just carry on with her own thing.   So you did the right thing in the moment. 

Could you also try 'I feel ' discussions with them when they're calm.    I.e.    When you fight I feel anxious and bad inside.......      it's a DBT skill about expressing your emotions. 

I'm sorry you had a tough evening, I hope you get some peace today.

Love Angels333 

[Former-Member]

@Shaz51 @Angels333 @saturnzoon @cutiepiekitty @Zoe7 @Sophia1

& to anyone else ive possibly missed just spread the word.

If ur having financial struggles u can contact ur energy retailers gas & elec & apply for a home energy emergency Assistance scheme application form.

Ive only just found out about it.

Could have helped me out many times in my past.

Dont c my Psychologist til next wk so i shouldnt b upset this weekend.

Hope u all enjoy ur weekend 

[Former-Member]

@Doglover @MDT 

@outlander @Judi9877 @Appleblossom  

@Maggie 

@frog 

@Mollie 

@eudemonism 

@Meowmy 

If ur having financial struggles u can contact ur energy retailers gas & elec & apply for a home energy emergency Assistance scheme application form.

Ive only just found out about it.

Could have helped me out many times in my past.

Dont c my Psychologist til next wk so i shouldnt b upset this weekend.

Hope u all enjoy ur weekend 

[Meowmy]

@Former-Member take care,have a good weekend

[Shaz51]

hello @Former-Member , @Meowmy , @Angels333 , @saturnzoon 

we have friday feast on tonight if you like to join us xxx

any plans for the weekend @Former-Member 

[Former-Member]

@Shaz51 

Tossing if i want to go to meditation class tonight or stay in.

Im having a very lazy day & enjoying it actually.

My computer wouldnt start yesterday so i had to get it fixed today.

A little set back but u get that.

Im going to see a play tomorrow arvo. The local ameteur theatre & musicals here r well supported by the locals.

Theyre very reasonably priced also 

I didnt go out much living sth cause it was too cold & everything was so far away.

Where i live now its only 10mins to everything. 

Weather has started to warm up here.

Im preparing for the fly season which is huge here.

Got a fly trap outside, bought binkill which ive only just found out about. Also a battery automatic spray.

So im well armed lol

Might go to the beach on the weekend also & chillout with a book