A Life of Trauma and Tragedy (Possibly Triggering Content)

[Eve7]

@Emelia8 

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[Shaz51]

@Emelia8 , my sister,  been thinking of you lots today , are you OK xxxx

[Appleblossom]

@Emelia8 

Hope your doing reasonably in your new little place.  Enjoying doing less work and your health is being cared for.

[Sophia1]

Hello dear @Emelia8 

I am appalled at the way you have been treated.

My existing opinion of, the lack of a health system in this country, where many hard working staff and some not, try their hardest, is already stretched to the limit.

I am sincerely hoping that you are currently preparing for the delayed surgery now.

You truly are such a lovely person to take the time to respond to so many who love and support you.

It goes without saying that we all want you to finally feel some relief and start the journey on the other side being a way to recovery.

Please conserve your energy and rest, rest, rest.

Sending you warm wishes for what each day brings as you move forward.

love

Sophia 1  xx

[Eve7]

Just checking in @Emelia8  I saw something on tv last night about avatars so what time should my avatar be at the station on Monday morning?

[Emelia8]

I have to book a taxi for 5.30am to pick me up @Eve7 .  Gotta be at train station by 5.45am. 😊

Got the text this arvo with my PCR test results.  Negative to everything 🎉  ie covid,  flu A, flu B, and something else I cannot recall.  I had been worried about the results as I have had the sniffles ever since the hospital told me (belatedly) yesterday that I needed to do the test prior to admission. I didnt realise how much it was bothering me tho until I heard the text come thru.  I couldnt look at it for ages.  When I finally did, and read all the negatives,  I just broke down and cried.  Then couldnt stop shaking.  Pretty silly aye? 

Anyway,  it means this long awaited surgery appears to have made the final of an exhaustive number of hurdles. 

I just have to get to Sydney on Monday for my 3pm admission,   without mishap.  That includes no train strikes or delays,  etc.  No sleep ins or failure of taxi to turn up.  😱

I saw my psych on Thursday. I was in tears,  and spoke of all the things that could go wrong.  Including the mess I am leaving behind for my poor brother (as next of kin,  poa,  etc) if I dont come thru my two surgeries. Eg A rental property,  a storage unit which he wont know where it is located or where the key is,  and a car in my garage for which he wont know where the key is. All the silly things you think of aye?  Yeah,  I havent been sleeping. 

Anyway,  my psych said it is fairly typical for the PTSD brain to catastrophise. And to keep in mind and be aware that that is what I'm doing. The chances of dying during or from surgery is very small after all. 

Oh well,  it will be great to have your company during the trip to the 'big smoke' on Monday. I know from previous trips that I will have very limited internet or wifi service. 

Thanks also @Sophia1 @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @Bow @BlueBay 

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Emelia 🌷

[Eve7]

I’ve read your post @Emelia8  and will reply soon. It’s currently interval at Miss 5’s ballet concert.

[Eve7]

I’ll be at the station bright and early @Emelia8 with my avatar.

You’re in my prayers for peaceful sleep and a calm mind.  Big hugs and lots of cuppas and scones.

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[Clawde]

Take Care @Emelia8  thinking and wishing you all the best from Clawde

[Eve7]

I am here with you @Emelia8  Let’s go my friend.

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