A Life of Trauma and Tragedy (Possibly Triggering Content)

[Emelia8]

Yes I'm here @Anastasia 🌷🌻

Just read your worry room post 😔💔  I'm so sorry, and wish this wasnt happening ... for you or your dear boy. How can I help you? I hate feeling useless.

[Anastasia]

I don't even know. I wish you were here. How can I work tomorrow? @Emelia8 

[Emelia8]

I wish I could be there for you in real life too @Anastasia 💕

I dont know about work. I think it will be low on your list of priorites right now. I expect your boss would be understanding of your situation, if you needed to take time off work. On the other hand, sticking to as near normal as possible may be the best thing for you right now. And that means working, something I know you would be extremely good at. If you dont go to work tomorrow, what else would you do?  How would that help?

Really feel for you regarding your concerns for your boy. And so sorry I dont have any wise advise or solutions for you. 

Is your bf there with you, and is he understanding and supportive of your thoughts and feelings?

Em

[Anastasia]

Haven't told him @Emelia8 he'd just get angry or.tell.me.what.i should have said that I didn't. Don't need that now

[Emelia8]

Yes you are right about that @Anastasia ... you definitely dont need that. 😔🌷

Any chance of calling the hospital and speaking to your boy's Dr or nursing staff? Just to reassure yourself that he is safe, and also to allert them to his current frame of mind.

And for you ... would it be beneficial to call a helpline, do you think?

[Anastasia]

I can't talk Em 😭😭😭😭

[Emelia8]

I understand @Anastasia 💔😭

I wish I could give you a reassuring hug and lend you a shoulder to cry on. 💞

[Anastasia]

I rang them. Broke down but got words out. They will be hyper vigilant tonight. Nurse said he asked for two items today and they had been refused...that was mid afternoon, thank God they knew not to

@Emelia8 @Eve7 💔😭

Eve please pray and @Bow please too, thank you. 

[Eve7]

Will do @Anastasia and at least you know he’s safe for now.

More hugs coming

🤗🙏🤗

[Emelia8]

Well done for making that difficult call to the hospital last night @Anastasia 👍💓

I hope it eased your mind a little, at least in knowing that they are going to be keeping a close eye on your Boy to keep him safe. I'm sorry to hear that your Boy has been asking for items that he may be planning to use.  I would expect the staff are well aware of such possibilities, and are highly unlikely to provide them. 

I'm pretty sure you would not have had enough sleep last night.  Are you okay enough this morning to go to work, or do you need to take the day off?  I think you usually try to visit your beautiful boy on Tuesdays ... so you will likely be doing so at some stage today.  Have they told you how long before the depot meds are likely to show improvement?  I dont know how long its likely to be, and think its less than a week since they started.  I am hoping that they may begin helping him soon.  I realise he is likely to remain in hospital for at least another 2-3 weeks from what you have said.  So perhaps thats an indication of how long it takes for the likely benefits to show through.  So dont give up hope yet that they are working and that your Boy will come through all this much improved.  It takes time.

Love you very much and am concerned for you as you negotiate this terribly difficult journey with your gorgeous boy. I know he is gorgeous, because he has such a kind and giving Mum.

With you today, and please know I am here for you ... just tag me and I will be here for you.  Morning medical appointments for hubby, so I will be out from 9am until around midday, but should be back home after that. So I will be around.

Emelia 💞